the hamptons | t.chalamet

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"what the fuck is wrong with you?" xavier yells at me.

i barely flinch this time and i reach out to try and reign in his drunken anger.

"babe, c'mon. you're drunk. let's go home." i say as calmly as i can over the loud music that is still going.

"i'm not going anywhere until you tell me why you won't just sleep with me!" his outburst catches the attention of some other people but everyone here is beyond intoxicated.

"xavier-"

he slaps my hands away from him. this time i take a step back.

he's never laid a hand on me once but i've also never seen him this drunk and angry before.

"we've been dating for years and you still won't have sex with me! why? do you have someone better waiting for you or something? or is that where you go every week after school? to your other boyfriend's house?"

i stay quiet.

"just tell me! is it me? or are you just a total nun?" he's right up in my face and i almost gag at the scent of mixed alcohol and drugs from his breath.

"xavier, can we please talk about this in the car?" i urge.

he sneers and stumbles a few steps to the right. "nah caerus. fuck you." he practically spits.

my heart rate increases with every curse. 

i know he's drunk.

but i also know he means every word.

he points his finger slightly to the left of me and scoffs in disgust. "fuck. you." he repeats. "i'm getting laid tonight, with or without you. i wanted it to be you because you're my fucking girlfriend but i guess you're too good for me."

my jaw is clenched and my nails are digging into my palms while i try to remain calm.

"i'll find my own way home." and with that he leaves.

i stay frozen in place for a few seconds, trying to calm my thumping chest.

the flashing lights in the club are making my head pound even harder and they definitely aren't easing my nerves at all.

it's not like i've never been yelled at. but this is the first time xavier's ever swore at me and scared me into thinking he would actually hit me.

my fingers gradually unravel from fists and i take a few deep breaths to steady myself.

xavier would never hook up with someone random and even in his state of mind he can tell the difference between a townie and a hamptons chick. at least he'll definitely have a way of getting home. 

it's fine. everything's fine.

i exhale and shake my hands. i look around to see if anyone's watching and am relieved to find that people are still riding the high of the party to notice or remember anything. 

something wet hits the back of my hand. i reach up and harshly wipe the tears i hadn't noticed.

i'm alright. it's not like xavier's never made me cry before.

i give myself one more deep breath before moving.

now that xavier has made it clear he will not be getting in my car, there is no more reason for me to stay at this stupid party. he should've started that fight two hours ago so i could be at home by now.

i shove my way through the crowd of dancing bodies until i squeeze out the exit. a few people are loitering by the entrance and i can smell the cannabis before i even see them. 

the midnight chill sends goosebumps up my exposed arms and i can't tell if my hands are shaking because of the cold or from this soul-draining event.

i make it all the way into my car and turn the heat up before allowing myself to finally form the thought that's been in my head all night.

this isn't even the worst day of my life.

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author's note.
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