Denying Destiny

Complications

"I already have a boyfriend, Jack." I was finally able to revive from the bomb he just dropped on me.

He was silent for a while. "Stace, di ako naniniwala na wala ka ng nararamdaman kahit konti para sakin, kasi ako mahal pa rin kita. We were together for four years. You broke up with me just because we were too far apart. But I'm here. I'll stay for you." He looked at me while saying those things.

I wanted to run away. To Killian.

"Jack, alam ko we were together for four years and I still care for you." I started. I don't want to lead him on, so I wanted to be careful. He didn't let me finish. "O diba? You care for me because you still feel something for me. Two years pa lang tayong break, Stace. Imposibleng wala ka ng nararamdaman at all." He continued.

Oh god. Someone please rescue me now. I'm trying to let him down as painlessly as possible but he's making it impossible for me.

"Sorry Jack, but you totally misread that. I care for you because naging friends din naman tayo while we were together. But I don't love you anymore." I said. Ayoko syang saktan but he deserves the truth. And I wanted to say the truth kasi I don't want him to push this further.

"Stace, I won't give up. You're the one I want to be with. For two years ikaw lang yung iniisip ko. Lahat ng babae that I dated, I kept comparing to you." Di na ko makahinga sa mga pinagsasasabi nya.

I texted Killian from under the table that I was ready to go.

"Jack, sorry pero I really don't feel the same way anymore. I've moved on. And mahal na mahal ko yung boyfriend ko." I probably looked at him with pity, I can see the hurt on his eyes.

"What's a few months compared to four years?" He tried again.

📱Killian: I'll be there in 5 minutes baby.

Killian's text was like oxygen. I hope he gets here sooner.

"The difference is mahal ko sya and hindi na kita mahal. You're a good guy Jack. I'm sure you'll find someone, but hindi na ako yun for you." I wanted to show my sympathy, pero I don't want to give him any hope. Kasi wala na talaga.

I checked my watch. Killian will be here any minute, or not, but I definitely want to get out of here already. Kahit hintayin ko nalang si Killian sa labas. Kahit bumabagyo pa sa labas I'd choose that over sa awkwardness na to.

"I need to go Jack. Killian will be here any minute." I said. Hopefully eto na yung end ng conversation namin.

"Your boyfriend?" Jack asked.

"Yes."

"Sige, hatid na kita sa lobby driveway." He said standing up. He already paid for the bill nung ok pa yung conversation namin.

"No na. I'll be fine." I insisted. Ayoko din naman maging rude na takbuhan sya but that was exactly what I wanted to do. Saka baka pag pumayag akong mag pahatid sa kanya, iisipin pa nyang gusto ko pa syang makasama.

"Bye, Jack. I'm really sorry." I said to him and umiwas ako when he tried to hug me. Everything he said made me uncomfortable already, ayoko ng dumagdag pa yung awkward na hug. "Bye." He said and I hurried off.