Prison of Love &Pain

Chapter 8- Keeping or Losing?

No one's POV

Meanwhile, Donghae was still lying on Hyukjae's bed, curled up and crying softly as he thought of how, what he thought was, his new friend  had left him just as all his old ones had in the past. He had sworn that Hyukjae would be different, but as it seemed, he was wrong. On the other hand, he thought that something had happened to Hyukjae and no one was there to help him. But what to do now? Should he just wait and see whether the other would come back anytime soon? Or should he go and look for the attractive male? But if Hyukjae didn't want to see him, being bothered by him or whatever, how would he react? Would Hyukjae really hurt him? Donghae didn't expect something similar from the other, even if he was a murderer just like Donghae was himself. What if he already encountered his rapist? If he wasn't strong enough and now lay on the floor, probably unconscious? Question after question ran through Donghae's mind but no matter what he thought, he was always coming to the conclusion that he wasn't wanted and that he deserved to be treated like a toy.

But there was also something else that was bothering Donghae. He loved sex and almost everyone inside the prison walls knew about that fact. Voluntarily,  he let others use his body, the incident with that new guy had been against his will though. And well, long story short, Donghae always used protection with one exception: when he was sleeping with Hyukjae. He didn't know why but something about the latter made him thrust into him without a worry and he was sure the other had no contagious disease. Within the past few days he had thrown up a couple of times though and therefore went to their doctor. Donghae was very comfortable with Sungmin unlike with other doctors outside the prison. It was difficult for him to trust people and even more difficult to trust doctors; though with Sungmin he was having a much more intimate relationship and since Sungmin was always so kind and caring towards him, the doctor was the only one beside Hyukjae he trusted here. 

Yesterday

No one's POV

It was a sunny day but Donghae wasn't allowed to leave the prison unlike some exceptions in the past. But even if he had been allowed to, he didn't feel like going out anyways. For the past few days, Donghae kept throwing up and kept having painful migraines as he all together felt rather ill, though this would only last a couple of hours before everything was over and he was feeling well again. Donghae had never been someone who liked to go to the doctor (due to incidents from his childhood.) So he had always avoided the doctors; but slowly he was getting annoyed and quite bothered by the illness. Luckily, the former stripper had finally found a doctor he could trust. Sungmin, a cute and handsome guy who took good care of him. Their personalities were suiting of one another's and Donghae had quickly found a new friend ,besides Hyukjae, so whenever he felt like he had become too burdensome for Hyukjae, he went to Sungmin and played with him. Mostly he went there for one thing though, maybe even two at times... Sex and love. No, not the kind of love as in loving your spouse, no, it was more like the love towards a brother or sister. Donghae was an only child and always had wished for an older sibling, now he had Sungmin. Well, one doesn't exactly sleep with his brother but... this was sort of a bonus. 

When he entered Sungmin's room he was greeted immediately with a hug by the joyful male. "Donghae-ah, where have you been these past few days? I missed you. Are you alright? You're looking a bit pale." Sungmin said as he began to worry for the younger and made him sit down without letting him answer any of his questions. He felt his forehead and made him open his mouth to check his throat. "Hmm.. No fever or any bad signs... Anyways, what are you doing here?" He asked as he patted Donghae's head. "W-well.. I-I am feeling s-s-sick in the mornings a-and keep h-hav-ing headaches." Donghae explained, speaking slowly to try and avoid stutters, though nevertheless failed in the end. "You didn't eat anything bad, did you? Did you find something on the corridors and take it?" Sungmin asked, since it had happened a couple of times already with hungry inmates having found spoiled and health-wrecking food or sweets in the corridors and carelessly eaten them. But he only earned a shake of Donghae's head instead.