This chapter was written as a journal entry by Lizzie Read about the impact that COVID continues to have on her everyday life.
I'm writing in a coffee shop. Should be the most normal thing in the world, right? I mean, I used to do this stuff before and sure, I felt anxious, but it wasn't like this, right? This is the first time that I've been somewhere by myself since March, and I'm going to be honest, I almost chickened out.
It's too hot in this mask. I hate it. But I hate when people don't wear them even more than I hate wearing them. I mean, sure, they have the same risk either way, but they're a LOT more likely to give it to me that way. My mom and I went to Lowes today, and almost no one was wearing masks. Mom gets so nervous about that. I mean, I do too, but it's really hard to keep acting like normal when I have to feel the worry for both of us.
I'm nervous to get up and put sugar in my drink. My arms are all shaky. Never mind, I looked and they don't even have it out any more. I haven't been here in so long. Everything feels different. I'd almost rather be curled up in bed doing nothing again, today. That way it's easier to ignore all of the rampant fear, anger, and disease that continues to plague our country.
I hate it. Hate-it-hate-it-HATE-IT.
But, I came here to be productive so that's what I'll do. I'm going to get a good chunk of my short story finished so that I can finally send it to my sister.
I can do this.
I just don't know for how much longer.
(Also, I went to the orthodontist this morning and now my teeth HURT)
Much love,
Lizzie <3
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The Fear Behind the Mask: a COVID-19 story
Non-FictionThis is a story about the experiences of myself and many others during the coronavirus epidemic of 2019-2020. This story is far from over, but maybe if I can share our thoughts, feelings, and experiences it will help other people to understand our...
