A Queen's Pain

Ch.2 Forgiveness

"Truth is everyone is going to hurt you, just gotta find the one worth suffering for"

Ever since what happened monday, my mom and I haven't spoken to each other. The only time we do speak is when it comes to school & if I'm hungry or not. I come home at 4:00 now , since that's what we agreed on well it's not like I had a choice . If not 4:00 I just go straight home after school and go to sleep when I get home. After I drown myself in homework and studying. In my spare time I write poetry, which has always been my outlet besides sex. Speaking of sex , I haven't had any since being with Bryce. Bryce and I have been talking a lot lately and after school we hang out and talk about our day. Which is something I look forward too. After he takes me home and gently but passionately kisses me & it was way more fulfilling then sex.

When my mom said my father would be disappointed in me it really did hit a nerve because she never spoke of him but her room had a bunch of pictures of him; his absence effected my life dramatically and I wonder how it would've been if he was still alive.

It was a chill Friday night and speaking of the infamous Raheem with Kayla; Raheem and I have been talking as friends. He's really down to earth but he has a girlfriend and that's another thing I'd stop doing messing with boys that were in a relationship. Even though he low-key flirts I like to take it as him being nice.

Kayla was staying the night and my mom was going on a date. I don't think anyone is good enough for my mother so this man better not think he's going to take my mom away from me. I'd be dammed if the same thing happened again.

Right now we were both waiting for my mom to come out her room so we can see her. "I'm readyyy" she sang happily before coming out her room. All I could think was damn my mom still got it, even though I was still upset with her I loved her dearly and part of me wanted her to just hug me at times because I needed it. She had on a long sleeve black dress that showed a little bit of cleavage and hugged her body in all the right places stopping at the tip of her middle fingers. Her hair was silk pressed and pulled into a bun with two strands left out. It complimented her creamy brown skin tone. She made sure her eyebrows were perfectly arched and she went light on the make up. I couldn't help but smile brightly at my mother. Even though she pissed me off, it was evident she wanted the best for me just like how I wanted the best for her.

"What do you guys think" she asked nervously smoothing out her dress. "You look beautiful" Kayla complimented making her smile brightly "Really" self consciously my mom questioned. "Yes mom, you look flawless " I could tell she didn't expect me to say anything her surprised demeanor turned into a bright smile "Thanks Yall, It's been a long time since I've been on an actual date" she coated her lips with clear lip gloss then placed it in her gold Michael Kors clutch. "I know mommy and that's why I want you to have a good time" I got up and kissed her cheek. "Awwwwwe" Kayla gushed making us all laugh.

The door bell rung , letting us all know he was here . I quickly ran over to the door because I wanted to see who this guy was. I peaked through the peep hole , trying to get a look at him but it was no use. Finally I opened the door, "Hi , you must be Karen's daughter" He spoke smoothly , this guy was quite tall his suit was tailored , along with a burberry button down. He was bald , but had nice features for a 40 something year old male. His smile was genuine and I liked that, "Yes I am, and you are" I questioned already knowing his name.

"I'm Marc an old friend of your mother's we seen each other at the grocery store & Immediately we clicked like the old times and I just had to take her out" I couldn't help but smile, "Momma He's here" I yelled , letting him in .

As soon as my mom entered the living room, his eyes were glued to her. So was Kayla's , She completed her attire adding a gold chunky juicy couture necklace and bracelet that matched her gold pumps and MK clutch.