For the Better or Worse? | Book 1 | Xiuhan/Lumin| -Rewriting-

Chapter 8: Kaisoo

-The Previous Day/Friday-

D.O's pov :

This is ridiculous. I can't believe I'm actually going to do this. I have been trying to avoid Kai for the first time since I first met him and I think he noticed. It might've been the fact that he greeted me like always but this time I didn't say ''Hi'' back to him. I know its really dumb and petty of me but I could use a break. As if he would even care if I didn't pay attention to him for one day. He has many other people who he could say hi to and also be greeted by.

I bet he's really glad inside. One less guy that constantly bothers him. He seems to be less stressed when I'm not around and not so serious with other people too but with me he almost looks awkward. Why is he different around me? Did I make things that awkward around him? Does he not think I am good enough for him?

I just don't know what to do any more with my feelings for him. I signed, looked at who was in the classroom, bored, and started to take notes while the teacher was talking about how music was invented and the importance of the history of music.

I shifted my eyes from the board and onto my notes trying to contain myself from not looking back at Kai. I don't even know why I try to tell myself that maybe one day he might like me when I know that I'm lying to myself. It's all in my head. Reality sucks. I took another look at the clock that was right next to the flag and looked at it seeing as time went by slowly.

''Mr. Do would you like to tell the class why you're not paying attention to my class or would you rather go to the principal's office!?'' I shook my head no as the teacher stood in front of the class, eyes boring into mine and for the whole class to be looking at me..

"I'm sorry, Sir, it won't happen again.'' I said apologizing before I could get into any trouble. Why does this school have such mean teachers? ''Good, that's what I thought, now let's go back to what we were o-'' He continued his lesson keeping a close eye on me. I blinked trying to focus on the board. I didn't want to get distracted and be the center of attention again. Not that I wasn't already. I'm making myself look like an idiot in front of the class. I waited and waited until it was the last minute of class to get out.

I can't believe that I actually survived this horrible class. I hate it. I can't believe I actually switched my music class period to Mr. Kim's class. Everyone knows he has his selected favorites and everyone is treated poorly if you are not one of them. If I didn't like you Kai. I would've switched back right away. I only end up looking like a lost puppy trying to look for it's owner. I really have to take some time off and move on. This is the last chance I'm giving myself to like Kai. If he doesn't do anything then I'm moving on for good and there is no turning back. No second chances anymore. No more mister nice guy. I need to stop being delusional.

What would I look for if I don't have a crush on Kai in school? I just don't know anymore. I wish I knew how it all will turn out but I can't. Right now the thing that I have to do is stay away from Kai. It is really hard for me that I feel like at the end of the day I'll end up bumping him and all my effort would be gone. I just really have to stay away from him no matter what.

"D.O, did you not hear me?" I felt a hand grab my shoulder while I was walking in the hallway and turned around to see who it was. I could believe that he was standing right in front of me without me doing anything. ''Hey, D.O, are you ok? You seemed like you were distance today.'' Kai said looking me straight in the eyes with worry.

''Yeah, I'm fine, don't worry.'' I said turning around to leave but when I was about to walk away he reached for my wrist. ''If you want I-'' He started to say but I just shut him down when I told him that I really needed to go. ''I'm sorry but I really have to go.'' I said before running off. I'm going to regret this tomorrow morning. I took a look back at where he was and saw him standing there looking at me slowly go out of his sight. I don't think I should avoid him but it's for my own good.