(god i love rat boy)
guys im mourning
do any of you remember "ruvery" ??
it was a poly ship between me and two of my friends (rue and anna, who was previously known as vend) and it had fanfics written about it by victor (previously known as iris if anyone remembers)
eventually, vend hit me up and kinda forced me to talk about the situation even though i was kinda oblivious to the fact people actually thought we were all in love with each other
so the funny thing is, i had a crush on rue, and vend had a crush on rue, and i think at some point rue rejected vend or vend just got over it and got a boyfriend at some point in the future (his name was casey idk what he's up to nowadays but i doubt he's still on wattpad tbh but he was really cool and i miss him)
i was upset because i thought they were gonna start dating and i'd just be third-wheeling but then i remembered that anna was way too young for rue and felt very stupid
and my crush on rue was definitely misguided i was just projecting onto them
i don't think rue ever liked me or anna romantically so that's something
but seriously all of my old friends are fucking gone and it makes my heart ache
fuck fuckin fcuck
