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6 ✦ realization

𝕘𝕠𝕠𝕕𝕓𝕪𝕖 𝕞𝕪 𝕕𝕖𝕝𝕦𝕤𝕚𝕠𝕟 

𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕘𝕖𝕥 𝕒𝕨𝕒𝕪

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i had been trapped in my own fantasy for so long.

that night we met, you didn't find me as someone special. you thought of me as another side character who was there to temporarily fix you. 

i was a stranger then, but it's not so different now, is it?

you don't know me. 

and i realize that i don't really know you either.

the you i thought i knew, wasn't real. 

you toss people away like mere objects. 

careless like gatsby's daisy. but she was never really his either, was she?

the facade you placed over yourself was just a cover-up for your fears. i'd given in and believed it. 

the day i realized this, i was walking back to the dorm from class. hood up, arms close to my body. 

the sky was a murky grey. soon it began to drizzle. 

i felt open-ended. how could i have played into your act so perfectly?

i thought i was the star and it turned out that i was the fool.

i walked past the cafe as you walked out. 

you looked at me.

your eyes turned glossy. you reached out for me. you called out my name. but i ignored you and kept walking. 

you called me again. i didn't answer.

you said soobin, but louder. i turned.

your umbrella over your head. rain-jacket covered arms hugging your body. you asked if i was okay.

i nodded my head.

you asked if you could walk me back, i didn't have an umbrella after all.

i considered it until i saw your eyes flicker to the left. 

the boys from the team and your friends were inside. now they were watching too.

so that's what this was about. the rain started pouring.

i scoffed at you. your eyes shone with pity.

i'm fine, i told you. i needed to get away. 

away from their eyes.

away from you.

i turned and walked without looking back. 

the story had never been about me. it had always been about you.

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𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕕𝕣𝕒𝕞𝕒