Ignite the Stars | Reader x Ben Solo / Kylo Ren

Ch. 10 | Hostage

I wanna be alone
Alone with you - does that make sense?
I wanna steal your soul and hide you in my treasure chest
I don't know what to do with your kiss on my neck
I don't know what feels true but this feels right so stay a sec
Yeah, you feel right so stay a sec and let me crawl inside your veins
I'll build a wall, give you a ball and chain
It's not like me to be so mean
You're all I wanted
Just let me hold you
Like a hostage

Billie Elish - Hostage

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The feel of Ben's body against yours is worth every near death experience you've had since meeting him. Ben's thoughts are so loud he might as well be yelling them at you. Needless to say what he is feeling and thinking conveys the feeling is mutual. What started out as slow and sweet has quickly turned into intense and needy. The hand that had been gently running circles on your arm has moved to your lower back so he can pull you in closer to him. Ben's deep and all encompassing need for physical contact and intimacy in general is overwhelming, but in a good way. It's a different type of need, the need to be close to someone, to feel needed, and to feel wanted. Of course he won't turn down getting in your pants which also doesn't need to be voiced.

He's in pain and is trying to hide it which is why you need to pull away. Nothing else could separate the two of you at the moment. You start to pull away from him but you don't get very far. Not only does he chase your lips with his but he also pulls you in closer to his body until you're flush against him. Smiling against his lips, you place both hands gently against his chest, and pull away again. When his mouth is out of reach of yours a small almost inaudible whine escapes his lips. Once he realizes he was the one that made the noise his cheeks turn a dark shade of crimson. You're both breathing heavily and staring at one another so you don't miss the way his eyes dart from yours to your lips again.

"You're in pain."

"Nope. I'm fine. Never better actually," he pulls your face back to his and presses his lips against yours but you laugh against his mouth and pull away again.

"You can lie to a lot of people but I'm not one of them. Strip and get into bed."

"W-what?"

"One of these days when I tell you to get naked it isn't going to fluster you. I said strip. You're not going to bed in those pants or your boots and you need to sleep."

He clears his throat and nods. You wiggle out of his hold and pick up the scattered first aid supplies. Without turning to look at him, you can hear Ben undressing and cursing under his breath every time he moves a specific way. Once the supplies are back in the first aid kit you take it back to the fresher where you found it and return to Ben's room. This is the longest the Force has kept you two connected and you can't help but wonder why. What made this time different? Is it because Ben needed you, in more ways than one? Does the Force care about what either one of you need? If so, why?

"Your thought process is exhausting. Does your mind ever turn off?" Ben says from under the covers.

"Does yours?"

"Fair point," he smirks. As you approach his bed he lifts the blanket up and waits for you to crawl into bed with him.

"Assuming much aren't you?"

He scowls at you but doesn't lower his arm. "You said so yourself, I'm in pain and need to sleep. Either you get under this blanket with me where I'm comfortable or I sit up and go to you. Your choice."