Forgive, and Forget (violate)

6. Bonus Chapter (My gift to you!)

6. Bonus chapter

Violet

I can't believe I did this to myself. I was so dumb, and naive as a kid, I wasted so much time in my room, cutting, smoking instead of living my life, and just having fun. I was depressed, and even love couldn't heal that. It was hard for me to stop cutting, but I promised him I would stop, and so I did. Over the years I have been cured, and I wish I could go outside, and run around without a care in the world! But now I'm stuck... and I can never go back, and fix what I have done.

I forgave him years ago, and I know that. But he still reminds me of how dumb I was to think that suicide was the way out. I killed myself because of him, and I wish I didn't. I felt like the room was caving around me when it happened, and the fact that the only person who cared about me would do such a thing.

When I was around him, he made me forget about how sad I was. It helped me, but didn't heal me. I never made friends, because I would isolate myself from everything, except Tate.

I wanna forgive him, but because of everything he has done I am where I am today. He still cares about me, and It hurts knowing I can't go to him. We will never get married, have kids, and grow old together.... I just have to rot in this house for eternity.

He gives me gifts every year for Halloween, My birthday, New years and Christmas. He usually will get me cigarettes, clothing, and flowers.... Always painted black. I love it when he does that, and I always wanted to say thank you, but then stopped myself. So I would write 'thank you' on my chalkboard, and then later on I would find my message replaced with 'I love you'. I would then cry tears of joy, but then just erase it, and leave it blank.

Speaking of which, my birthday is soon, and I will be turning 21... well shit! It is getting close to my 4th year of being here as well. All I want for my birthday is him. 

*For my birthday I'm giving you all the gift of an extra chapter*