Forgive, and Forget (violate)

11. Nightmares of reality

Violet

'Hey, I saw what happened, why did he do that?' She asks, I don't want her to be here, but I do want someone to talk to...

'What do you think?' I ask threw my tears in a calm voice

'I don't know, but what I do know is that he loves you even if he is a sick bastard...' She says. I put my head down, so she can't see my face, and cry harder.

'I don't know why I have to feel this way... about him..' I say, and she walks over, and sits next to me.

'Well, I don't really understand your taste in men, but here we are.' She says chuckling.

'Aren't you the one who kissed him?' I ask

'Yeah! But that was before I knew he shot up his school, while on crack!' She says, and I chuckle a little.

'He was on crack?' I ask

'Yeah? He is cute though, I'll give you that, and he seemed all over you when I talked to him.' She says

'He talked about me?' I look down, and start to blush.

'Yeah, I asked him if he knew you, and he said that you were the most beautiful girl he had ever seen.' She says turning her head to me. I can't believe how much I love him, he fucked up, but he has changed..

'Why did you kiss him?' I ask after a long pause.

'Because he also said he was trying to get over you.' She says. I turn to open her/my/his drawer, and pull out a cigarette, and a lighter. 'Can I have one, shit has been hard lately...'

'Sure' I hand her a cigarette, and she lights hers as well. 'I noticed you haven't been sleeping in your room lately.'

'You mean your room, and you can keep it... I just get too worried at night. It doesn't help that I get these terrible nightmares in here.' She says

'I used to be fearless, until the darkness took hold, and now everything seems to scare me...' I say, I hate showing weakness, but at this moment I don't look too tough anyway. 'What are your nightmares of?'

'Well I have only had 3, and the first one was of a boy. He kinda looked like Tate, and he had a skull painted on his face. He held a gun, and was whistling that one kill Bill song. He busted through the library, then shot some kids with a crazed look.' At this point she started to have tears in her eyes. 'He got home, and a SWAT team shot him in the chest, and that's when I woke up' What the actual fuck?!

'Holy shit...' I say

'The next one you're in...' She sighs 'You were running around your house, and there were ghosts all around you, and you ran to your room. Somebody turned on music, and you turned it off in fear. On your chalkboard it said 'I love you', and you started to cry really hard. Then you grabbed some pills from your bed, and took the whole bottle. You laid down, but then Tate dragged you all the bathroom screaming and crying. He made you throw up the pills, and saved your life.'

'Except he didn't.' I mutter under my breath, and start crying a little more.

'Last one was of this woman giving birth, and she ends up dying in the process...' She says

At this point I couldn't take it so I got up, and left the room... I could sense Tate was there when we were talking, so I stayed longer than I would have.