The White Dress I Wore...

Mark, Jae, and Johnny's funeral...

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-Harmony's perspective-

I walked lifelessly into the funeral home, pretending to inspect the decorations Rose and Taehyung helped with for Mark, Jae, and Johnny's funeral. There is still half an hour til guests come, but I already felt numb seeing the 3 coffins in-front of the huge room. I decided to not look at the coffins any longer and started a conversation with Rose. "Thanks for the preparations you and Taehyung prepared for me.." Rose and Taehyung was just silently standing next to me, not saying a word. I guess they know well that I feel numb, but my emotions are also so intense that talking at this point is kind-of hard for me.

-Time Skip/half an hour later-

Guests were walking in and the huge room was eerily quiet. My best-friends finally showed up and Taeyong immediately motioned all the other boys to sit down while he goes and talks to me. 

"Hey, um you ok there?" I swayed my head from side to side, motioning a no. Surprisingly, he started wrapping his arms around me. What's more surprising is that I didn't push away this time. Instead, I just cried in his arms, I cried for what felt like an eternity til Rose interrupted me and told me it was time for the speeches...

"Good mor-rning everyo-one, I'am Ma-ark's wife, Harmony, and the mother of Jae-e and Jo-ohnny. Thank-you for turning up this morning to mourn the loss of my family... and to say goodbye to...them." Tears started streaming down my face, but I managed to continue my speech. "I-I, you know, I never really expect to bu-ury my kids w-w-ith my hu-u-sband, but I guess destiny already decided what my life will bring me, and I'am deeply sad at this point. Mark, he was my everything; through thick and thin, he cheered me up, loved me, and did everything for our kids. I never would have imagined saying goodbye to him like this...but now I'am. Please remember his life, he was the light in my dark world. Jae and Johnny..., I feel so bad for them...I was never really there for them, but I still loved them to death. This family will never be the same...because a sick person decided to murder my everything...leaving me with nothing... I will always cherish those memories with them, and I will ask all of you to please remember my secret family, the family I loved so much...; and so I stand here today, saying "Goodbye my love..." goodbye Mark, goodbye Jae, goodbye Johnny..." I started crying uncontrollably, leading to Rose hugging me and dragging me back to where she was standing while Taehyung stepped up to the podium and started his speech.

The rest of the speeches from Taehyung, Rose, and the boys were a blur. I just cried and cried in Rose's arms or in Jennie's arms. Yes, Jennie who Taehyung used to date after he dated me. Rose, Jennie, Jisoo, and Lisa were all best-friends, and all of them cared for me despite anything and everything that happened in the past. But I didn't care about my past at this point, I just had my mind on my family, the secret family that I cared for so much..., the secret family that I now just lost. 

-Time Skip-

I dragged my feet behind the boys while some of them carried the coffins while other were standing beside the coffins. I was numb, but I could still feel tears running down my cheeks. I was holding a picture of all 4 of us together, happy times, when I didn't know that my family would be broken in months. Tears streamed down my cheeks as we made our way to the coffin cars and they soon drove off to the cemetery.

-Time Skip-

Everyone had left, but I stood there, looking at the 3 grave stones... Suddenly, rain started pouring down, leading me drenched in water. I didn't care though, my life just got ruined. My mother probably saw the news that my secret family died and is probably trying to reach me by phone, but I turned it off already. My Mark, my Jae, my Johnny, they weren't gonna wake up again...I wouldn't get to talk to them, give them hugs, and say "I love you" to them... I regret not saying "I love you" to Mark on that phone call that day...I missed the chance to say that I loved him... I regretted it so much! If only, if only I would have said those 3 words... "See you in my memories.." and with that, I walked back to my dorm.