Frerard oneshots

Im so sorry

~•this is a part 2 of Stupid&Anxious that no one asked for, but I really wanted to write it, this will be sad. Enjoy -Bee🐝✨•~
Frank
It's been a few days since me and Gerard got into that fight. We've had one show and we tried to keep the same energy for it but it wasn't good enough. He's been drinking more, I really really fucked up. He's rarely ever sober, he's killing himself more and I feel like he's aware of it.
I was just in my bunk crying again, I actually stopped then I heard a knock on the bunk door. "Come in." I said sniffling. It was Mikey and Ray, they came in and shut the door behind them. "If you guys are going to yell at me for doing that, again, then leave." I said wiping my eyes. "No, we aren't going to do that. He's sober, you should talk to him." My head shot up. "Really." I looked up at them both they had concerned looks on their faces. "Yeah you should do it now before he starts drinking again." I immediately got up leaving the bunk and knocking on Gerard's bunk door. "Yes." I could barely hear it. "Gee, it's me, can we talk?" I heard shuffling and he opened the door. I looked up at him his eyes were puffy and red, he looked like he had been crying like I was. "I'm so so-sorry." I said before breaking down. "Frank, hey it's okay." I was sobbing, crying more than I have before. He led me to the bed a closed the door. He sat next to me. "Frank, hey, try and calm down." I knew it made him sad but it just, happened. I couldn't control it. When I saw him it just triggered something. He hugged me I hugged back crying on his shoulder. He played with my hair. "Hey it's okay, I know it's hard, I know." He continued whispering sweet nothings into my ear. I had soon calmed down, feeling safe as he was hugging me. "You okay now?" I nodded, hiccuping. He stopped hugging me and I did too. He held my face his hands wiping under my eyes with his thumbs. I held his wrists there. "What did you want to talk about, why were you apologizing?" Was he really playing dumb? "I'm sorry that I fucked everything up, if I wouldn't of done that then this wouldn't of happened." I said tears forming again. He frowned. "I really shouldn't of said those things, especially about Bert, I was so stupid." He furrowed  his eyebrows. "Hey no, I shouldn't of reacted like that, you weren't the stupid one, I was." I shook my head. "Don't say that." He sighed. "I'm sorry too." I frowned. "You don't need to apologize Gee." He shook his head. "No I do, I shouldn't of pushed and screamed at you." I nodded not wanting to remember that night. "Why did you want to help me that bad anyways." I bit my lip, tears were forming again. I didn't want to tell him why. "Frank?" I swallowed. "Uh, well, I-I did it cause I really care about you. And Mikey and Ray gave up on you, but I didn't cause I-" I stopped myself before I said anymore. "You? You what?" I bit my lip and took a deep breath, wanting to say it but also not wanting to. "Frank? What were you going to say?" He paused. "Frank?" I took a deep breath. "Frank wha-"
"I-I love you okay?! I've never gave up on you because I fucking love you!" I said pulling away. I started crying again. He hadn't said anything. This is exactly why I didn't want to say it. "I-You-You shouldn't of said that." He said. I looked at him the tears still falling. "Y-you don't feel the same do you?" He shook his head and looked down. My heart shattered at that. I had liked him for so long and to hear that made me, sad, I really thought he actually felt the same. But, I guess not. I was crying, a lot, he reached for me but I just left the room, I just got up and left. I went into my bunk I locked the door and I cried so much, I didn't think something could make me that sad. God I was just so stupid. I was crying way more now, sobbing. It hurt, it just hurt, so damn much, he made me believe he felt the same and then just, all of a sudden, didn't feel the same. I cried till I feel asleep, I could barely keep my eyes open the next day I was so tired.

~•Gosh editing this is not gonna be fun, I teared up, Anyways, I apologize if this made you cry. Have a nice day/night/evening/morning/whatever time it is -Bee🐝✨•~