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Chapter Two
Life must be so cruel to anyone. Not just me but everyone. At an early age, I was diagnosed by cancer. But in a young age, I always think in he brighter side. Because that's makes me live more. I can't die. I'm too young for that. I still have dreams.
Positivity will makes everyone day brighter, we can't live by negativity because it'll ruin us.
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"Good morning, Silver" the doctor greeted us.
Me and my Mama was the only one who's here in my hospital room. My Kuya went home because he has work to do. While Gab, he went to the university to enroll for college.
"Good morning, Doc Ash." I greeted back with a bright smile in my face.
I look at mom and worry expression is written all over her face. "So as I was telling you yesterday that there will be a high possible chance that the result will be positive. And I'm not wrong about that. You are positive for having a leukemia, Silver. But don't worry, we'll do everything para gumaling ka."
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Sa mga panahong yung, hindi ko maiwasan na hindi matakot. I was positive of having cancer. Takot na takot ako pero lalaban ako. Lumaban ako para gumaling lang ako.
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Days passes like a blur. It's been 10 months since I was diagnosed of having leukemia and it's been 10 months since I'm taking a chemotherapy and medications.
My life was hard, but eveyday, I'd smile like it's a routine for my daily basis.
I always act strong to show them that I'm fine and I will fight.
But the truth is, I'm scared. So much scared that one day, my condition will worsen. Because everyday, lalong nanghihina ang katawan ko dahil sa chemo ko. And my hair were slowly pulling out from my scalp so I ended up cutting my hair into shoulder length level.
People around me were acting tough but I know, na nahihirapan na rin sila. Si mama, palagi nalang maga ang mata everytime nagke chemo ako. My kuya is always exhausted from work but here I am, lying in this bed. A living person who's fighting for her life but felt useless. Si Gab, I'm trying to broke up with him dahil nakakasagabal na ako sa pag aaral niya. Pero ayaw niyang pumayag.
I can't bare watching him go back and forth from his school to the hospital. Alam kong pagod siya sa pag aaral niya kaya ayoko nang dumagdag pa. But he always reminded me of our promised we made.
"Ma?" mahinang tawag ko kay mama.
"Bakit? Kay kailangan kaba? Nagugutom kaba? Nauuhaw kaba?" nagpa panic na tanong niya. She's always like that since I'm getting weak because of my medication.
Ngumit ako sa kanya.
"Magpahinga ka muna, Ma. You look really exhausted because of me. I'm sorry"
"No, Sil. It's okay. You're my daughter. I love you that's why I'm doing this. I can't bare watching you getting weaker and weaker everyday. I can't bare losing a child, so fight my child? Hmm? Hanggat kaya ko, lalaban ako gaya ng paglaban mo. Hindi ka nag iisa sa laban mo. Andito kami nang kuya mo, pati si Gab. We love you so much, Sil." Umiiyak na sabi ni mama.
"Don't worry, Ma. Lalaban ako. Lalabanan ko to. Mahal na mahal ko kayo" hagulhol ko habang nakayakap kay mama.
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At the age of eighteen that time. I learned to be unselfish. I just can't think of myself. May mga taong umaasa na gumaling ako. I can't just stop fighting, dahil may mga tao ding lumalaban para saakin.
I can't just surrender, malayo na ang narating ko. Mahabang paglaban na ang nagawa ko. Susuko pa ba ako?
That's when I realized, na kapag nagpapakita kang nasasaktan ka, masasaktan mo din sila. It's a battle between your cancer, yourself and the people around you.
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I woke up at the middle of the night. And I found Gab, sitting at the sofa, doing his homework.
Nanubig ang mga mata ko at the sight I'm seeing. I can't bare losing this only person who love me the most even at my weakest point. Lalaban ako, Gab. Para sainyo nila ni Mama.
"Gab?" I called his name with my almost whisper weak voice. He suddenly stop whats his doing
upon hearing his name.
He stood up and came with me.
"Hmm?" he asked with his sleepy voice. He's drained.
"Are you almost done with your works?"
"Hhm. Yea. Malapit na." then he smile to assure me that he's fine.
"I love you, Gab" I almost whisper to him.
"I know, Sil. I love you too. Rest for now. I'd still have works to finish" and he kiss my forehead and that's when I fall asleep.
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If only I knew that time. Things won't turn out like this.
Hawak pa sana kita. Hawak mo pa sana ako.
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I Won't Let Go
General Fiction"I promised you to stay. I promise to never leave." [WARNING!!!] DON'T MAKE PROMISES YOU DON'T INTEND TO KEEP.
