*be aware of typos and grammatical error
A/N: so this is an edited part, nadelete kasi yung buong Chap3 and wala akong copy so I tried my best to revise it nalang:)
(song: This I believe by Hillsong)
Chapter Three
When you're at this state, wala ka nang ibang magagawa kundi lumaban, at manalig sa kanya na pagalingin ka.
But when he decided to get one of you here, wala kanang magagawa kundi ang pumayag sa gusto niya. It was when he let my Papa left us when I barely prayed to him. I was a kid back then, a 10 years old girl who believes in him- in his miracls. Na kapag nagpray ka sa kanya tutuparin niya, but he didn't. I always prayed that time to let my Papa stayed by our side but it didn't happened.
And now that I've grown up, I realized that everything happens for a certain reason. We just need to see that reason for us to believe in him again.
May mga rason kung bakit tayo iniwan, nasaktan, at kung bakit parang tayo nalang parati ang napaparusahan.
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"Gab?"
"Hhm? Do you need something?" He asked
"No. Itatanong ko lang sana kung busy ka ngayong sunday?"
"Hhm. Why do you asked?"
I shake my head. "Nothing. You seem so busy this past few days kasi."
"Ahhh, yea. I'm trying to finish all of my school work earlier than the due date. So I could be with you, I miss being with you, Sil." He said.
"I love you, Gab" I said.
"I know, Sil. I love you too." Then he kissed my forehead like he always does.
SUNDAY morning came and Gab isn't here. He told me that later in the afternoon he'll be here.
Sunday and I want to go to church today. I want to pray to him. I have so many prayers to him.
"Ma? Can I go to church today?"
"No, you're not allowed to go outside, Sil. You're sick!" I stopped talking when the door opened. "And I can go with Kuya. Diba kuya?" Tanong ko kay Kuya ng makapasok siya.
"Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Anong I can go with kuya?" He asked with questioning look.
"Yang kapatid mo, gusto daw magsimba. Sinabihan ko na bawal dahil may sakit siya, ayaw ba naman makinig at idamay kapa." si Mama na yung sumagot kay kuya.
"Eh Kuya, magsisimba lang naman ako. As if I will do something bad that'll affect my health. It's just for hour. Pagkatapos uuwi din naman agad. Please Ma? Kuya? Pretty pleaseee" sabay pa cute hehehe.
"Ako, pwede kitang samahan, wala akong work ngayon. But..." at nagkibit balikat si Kuya sabay tingin kay Mama.
"We can ask permission to Doc Ash. I will do everything and wear anything naman. I'm sure papayag si Doc." Pamimilit ko.
"Ewan ko sayo. Pag ayaw pumayag ni Doc Ash wala na akong magagawa dun." mama said then she went outside to ask permission.
Minutes later, mama came back with Nurse Tina by her side.
I smile widely dahil alam kong pumayag si Doc Ash.
Yes!
Nurse Tina told me everything that I should be aware of and things that I'm only allowed to do.
MINUTES had passed when we arrived at the church. I'm wearing a pants and jacket and also a face mask to avoid me from dust and viruses. My immune system is weak that's why I need to be extra careful for the things I'm gonna touch or hold.
I walk on one of the chairs inside the church and bend my knees and do the sign of the cross to begin my prayers.
Dear God
I know that you hear me. I came here to apologise to you for blaming you why my Papa left us. I know I shouldn't have done that but I was just a young kid back then and this foolish heart of mine was badly hurt at that time. I'm sorry for not believing in you on those times, I'm sorry for doubting your reasons. I know that you've forgive me because I know that you're good enough to not hold grudges among us because you love us, right? By the way, Thank you. Thank you for giving me chance to live in this world, for letting me see the beauty in this universe. I know one of these days, you'll come to me and tell me it's time. And if that day will happen then I would be greatful. I may not able tour the whole world but in this short period of time I had my greatest life adventure. So thank you so much. I won't be mad at you for getting me sick because I know you have your reasons and I believe in you. And also, please do protect the people around me. I don't want them to get hurt. And give them courage to live their life to the fullest and not to stay by my side and unable to live freely.
For now, that's the only thing I'm gonna say to you. I'm sorry and thank you.
After I prayed for him, I smiled.
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I Won't Let Go
General Fiction"I promised you to stay. I promise to never leave." [WARNING!!!] DON'T MAKE PROMISES YOU DON'T INTEND TO KEEP.
