I Won't Let Go

Chap6-

*be aware of the typos and grammatical errors.

(song: When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne)

Chapter Six

"Forget your past, be free and begin again"—TBMA

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Four months later...

It's 5:04pm and here I am at the rooptop.

Four months had passed and in those two months I always found myself here at rooftop enjoying the view of beautiful sunset every late afternoon.

They said, Sunrise symbolizes new beginnings while Sunset symbolizes endings.

Ending? It may be a beautiful ending, sad ending, sorrow ending, bitter ending, it all depends on our emotions.

Gab and I? I don't know what ending do we have, it may be sad? Because in those four months I never once saw him again. Bitter? Because he left me with no goodbyes, he just disappeared like that. And until now, I'm still thinking if he's okay? if where is he? I don't know, I just don't.

In four months, I'm still recovering from his sudden disappearance. But I could say that I'm a little better now. Medyo nasasanay na rin ako na wala na siya sa tabi ko. Na wala na yung Gab na minahal ako at hindi ako iiwan.

Pero di ko parin maiwasan na hanap hanapin sya. Miss ko na siya sobra. Minsan napapaisip ako kung wala nalang ba ako sa kanya? Paano na yung pangako niya? Kakalimutan nalang niya ba yun? Ang sakit sakit na, sobra.

Everyday and everynight I'm still longing for his presence. Minsan nagigising ako ng madaling araw dahil napanaginipan ko siya. Minsan nagigising ako para lang umiyak.

Siguro nga I'm a little better now, just little. Hindi naman kasi madali eh. Nagpaalam lang siya tapos yun na pala ang huli.

Ako naman, I don't know kung gagaling pa ako. Mama may not tell me but I know na wala na akong pag asang gagaling pa. I became skinny as time passes and I feel so tired everyday without doing something. Kaya palagi na akong naka wheelchair. Siguro himala nalang kung gagaling pa ako.

I closed my eyes to feel the fresh air that hits to my skin, and memories flashes in my head.

It was raining that day after my last class on that day. Nandon lang ako nun sa lobby ng school, nag iisip kung susulungin ko ba ang ulan o hihintayin itong tumila. Pero lumipas ang isang oras na hindi parin tumitila ang ulan. Until he approached me— Gab. We're on the same batch kaya kilala ko siya, but he's in a first section while I'm on second. We're both on our last semester of being a 10th grade that time.

"Silver? Right?" he asked all of a sudden.

I was shocked. Of course I will. Isa lang namang Gabrielle Mason Rivera ang kumausap sayo. Myghod. He's known for being a MVP of basketball dito sa school namin and he's running to be a valedictorian in our batch this year.

He waved his hand on my face just to see if  I'm okay. Paano ba naman kasi, nakatulala lang ako sa kanya.

"A- ah? Ha? Oo hehe" paksiw nakakahiya. Crush ko pa naman siya since 1st year. Sil umayos ka..

He chuckled for a while at hindi ko mapigilang mamula sa ginawa niya. Paksiw Sil, ang gwapo niyang tumawa.