Cornered

Longing

-Nine-

I opened my eyes in a cold sweat. I remembered why I knew Joongs name and had recognized him the way I did and felt so relaxed with him. It was because he was the missing son of the family that lived next to us. My first kiss at a party. The first guy I ever liked and I had thought he died back then. That no longer mattered to me as I broke down in bed again. Joong had used me for his own pleasure and found enjoyment in it. How could he? Kat was always right. No matter what happened I couldn't change him. He was nothing more than a fuck boy that wanted in me. Every confession, every kiss, everyday seeing him was all him trying to bed me and when he did he thought he could keep doing it? I burried my head in my hands crying before I remembered seeing Earth come in but I had walked passed him when leaving. I didn't have time to think when Kat came in and sat at the end of the bed.

Kat: "You're so stupid Nine. You seriously believed Joong of all people would stay in a fake relationship as long as he got sex. Do you remember when you told me the day you got drunk and tried to have sex with him he refused you? How he Was gentle to an extent with sex and made sure you were ready. Trust me kid. I know very well that yes, he used to have sex with people but each time he had reason. He hates lies Nine so whatever he has told you will always be truth. No matter what it depends on, he doesn't lie. He's not like that, which was why he broke their fake relationship and always talked about how he hated to be in it because it was based on lies."

I looked down and nodded with tears in my eyes, threatening to spill over and show how broken and upset I really felt.

Kat: "Here. Have Earths phone number and text him. He told me he was there when you two started talking to her so he recorded what she said to you. You should thank him and learn more about Joong through someone else's eyes because mine alone won't fix this. You need a newer, fresher set of eyes, ones that know him well but not as long. Earth is perfect for that. "

I nodded and let her take my phone, not caring much for what she did with it. I didn't know Earth well, or Ben. Just that one worked on impulse and the other was down to earth. Like how Kat needed some grounding and someone around that could help her remain steady other than me.

Kat: "Now, behave when texting him. He's weird sometimes. I'll be in my room if you need me so if you do decide to text him now, remember he was passed out when I went to get Joong so I'm not sure if he was drunk or not. "

I nodded and watched as she left the room. But for some reason I didn't go to text Earth. I felt that If I did I'd be wrong in listening to her and that would mean that I blindly burned Joong. Over a lie.  I touched my cheek with my eyes closed and winced away from my own touch. I felt like only Joongs touch didn't hurt me on a deeper level other than Kats. I had managed to stay happy despite what my family did to me, despite all odds he had been there beside me. He wasn't like what she had said but I so easily believed her. Fuck. Why did it feel like right now it was a game to others? I sighed and texted Earth.

Nine: Earth? Are you awake still? This is Nine.

Earth: I'm awake kid. Did you Need something Nine?

Nine: Right. Uhm if your boyfriend is okay with it can I treat you to a meal so we can talk face to face? Kat said to text you but I don't like that when it comes to this.

Earth: Sure. Don't worry Nine. Even if Ben wasn't okay with it you're not my type. He knows that.

Nine: Okay. I'll give you the details. Thank you.

Earth: Anytime. I've known Kat and Joong for a long time so I'll gladly talk and be your friend.

Friend? That actually sounded nice. I felt as though I had no normal friends really. I had something with Joong, Kat adopted me. I wasn't sure about Lay. I didn't doubt Earth though. I put my phone on the charger and left the house to go to the store. I decided to walk since I could use the fresh air and smiled when the chill of the wind brushed my cheek. I had used to love walks but soon I'd get more popularity and was warned that this could cause issues in later times in case someone started rumors like with the others. I closed my eyes and put my palms together to pray, despite not believing in these things I felt like it was needed.

Nine: "I'm an idiot. I already knew Joong wasn't this way, so why did I listen? Kat told me to always listen to both my heart and my head but I listened to my head because I was scared. He had such a great and long relationship with Kat that remained even after their break up. Tsk. I need one more chance. Please. A chance to make it better and forget my fears."

I opened my eyes and scoffed. Why had I thought something like this would work? How stupid could I get? I sighed and looked up to the sky as it started to rain. Seemed I wasn't the lucky person I had always thought I was. Between modeling and school that was starting up, I'd have a chance to finally really relax. No worries about love, nothing was more simple then drawing to me but recently I hadn't even touched a drawing pad. I chuckled and looked up to the sound of tires screeching, bright head lights. And nothing. Cold, wet, darkness.