Cornered

Break

-Kat-

It's been almost three hours and we still haven't heard anything from the doctor about Saint. Lay sat next to me silent as I went over the fact that this, this was my fault ran through my head. I stressed Saint out and didn't know about him being sick, or even that he could die from it. My tears started falling again as I tried to figured it out. I really was in love with Saint and I hadn't noticed it before. Now that he was in there dying I knew and I couldn't do anything about it. I got a call from Nine that I picked up right away. He sighed and I knew already he'd gotten in trouble for that fight before. Usually I'd be pissed someone hurt him but I was so confused about my own feelings that nothing really registered in my head . 

Nine: "They told me to call my guardian to come and talk to them."

I nodded even though he couldn't see me and wiped my tears.

Kat: "I'm on my way."

I hung up as soon as the doctors came out and both Lay and I stood up.

Lay: "How is he?!"

The doctor looked down with a sigh and touched Lays shoulder lightly.

Doctor: "The surgery went well Lay. We managed to remove the tumor but we fear that he may need a transplant soon. Very soon."

I had to leave to help Nine out. When I got there almost the entire company was gathered while Nine leaned back into Joong.

Manager: "Oh. Kat. Are Nines guardians with you?"

I chuckled and pulled him next time me resting my arm on his shoulder and meeting the general managers eyes.

Kat: "Yeah. You're looking at her."

He narrowed his eyes at me and I heard people talking amongst themselves. Hm, sucked everyone gathered but this was a time to play around a bit since I knew the limits.

Kat: "You see, if I found out about the abuse he was going through just by watching him and paying attention I knew your rookie manager knew too, watching him change and all. I also know that they had to report it to you. But since he was a mere rookie, why care right? What you didn't expect  was that I'd take him under my wing and so would Joong. You only seen him as a joke. Now look at this. You regret it. Next time you play rough with my kid because of a fight, remember you let him go through abuse and didn't give a damn because he was just a mere rookie in your eyes and now he has me."

I lowered his chin and leaned closer to his lips, a soft growl to my voice.

Kat: "And keep in mind that now that he's my kid, I won't put up with your shit. You can't risk losing me because I'm a top model and if you fire me none of my fans will be happy. This place will in fact fall apart. Don't play with the queen when shes the reason you get paychecks still."

I sighed and leg go, pulling Nine away from the crowd and he hugged me when we got into my changing room.

Nine: "I wish I was that brave."

I sighed. I wasn't brave at all. Hell, I didn't think I'd ever been able to admit out loud how I felt for Saint.

Kat: "You are strong kiddo. I love you but I have to get back to the hospital to see if we can see Saint. He just got out of surgery when I left."

Nine and Joong went with me back to the hospital when we left the company to go see Saint. When we got there I knocked on the door to the room Saint was in. Lay answered and you could see he was tired and was crying again at the thought that he almost lost his brother. As I walked into the room it felt like a vice was gripping my heart when I seen him. He looked so pale as he laid there hooked up to all kinds of monitors. His skin didn't have it's usual glow to it. I sat down beside his bed grabbing his hand gently holding it in my own as tears started falling from my eyes again. I took Saint almost dying and being hospitalized for me to see that I was in love with him. Guilt filled me as I looked at him. How am I going to forgive myself for this? This is all my fault. I felt a hand gently rub my shoulder making me look up with tears streaming down my face. Nine stood beside me with Joong and Lay as he rubbed my back not saying anything then Joong spoke.

Joong: "He's tough Kat he'll get better, besides he's to annoying to go anywhere or leave you alone for very long. I know he'll get through this just so he can piss you off some more. You will be the one of the reasons that he will fight through this, the other being Lay. He would leave either one of you."

I nodded sighing as I wiped the tears from my face. If Saint saw me like this he would never let me hear the end of it, but right now I didn't care. The only thing I wanted at this moment was for him to wake up. Lay pulled another chair beside me while Nine and Joong sat on the couch on the other side of the room speaking quietly to each other. Hearing Lay sigh I looked over at him while still holding Saint's hand while softly rubbing my thumb over the top of it making small circles. After a moment Lay spoke.

Lay: "I'm sorry that I hit Nine. I don't know what happened or why I did it. I guess all this stress hit me to fast all at once and when he said what he said to Fai I lost it. I shouldn't have hit him. Fai was in the wrong. Shouldn't have said what she did. She's the one who started it. Nine was only defending you. I'm just surprised you didn't kick my ass yourself. Can you forgive me?

Looking at Lay I could see that stress and worry were taking it's toll on him. He looked tired and a bit pale himself. I don't think he's even eaten anything. I know he hasn't gone home to change his clothes because he was still wearing the same thing he was in when I called him to come to the hospital. I was pissed that he hit Nine and yes, normally I would have beat his ass but Nine did it himself. I was in shock at that moment after what I was told. Finally after what seemed like forever I spoke making Lay look at me as I did.

Kat:"I can understand that you are worried about your brother but next time you ever lay a hand on Nine I will kick your ass myself. I'll let it go this one time and forgive you but that's it. Don't let it ever happen again and to answer your question, I was in shock at that moment or I would have done it mself instead of Nine. Fai better stay the fuck away from me too or next time I won't just stand still. I don't give a fuck who she is to you or Saint she better stay away from me and if she knows whats best for her and you'll keep her away if you know whats best too. With all of this being said I'm sorry that I caused your brother to be here. I know it's my faut and that there isn't anything I can do to fix it. Can you forgive me for causing your brother to be in such a state that he is here?"

We sat there in silence after everthing was said that needed to be said. It felt as if this grey cloud would swollow us all. You could feel the sadness in the room. I didn't know where Fai was, not that I really cared to know anyways. She can stay away from me, Saint and everyone else if she knew what was good for her. I really didn't have it in me to deal with her and honestly I'd probably snap if she even said anything to me. She can also stay away from Saint because he's mine and I don't like anyone trying to take or mess with what's mine. Sighing I laid my head on the bed beside mine and Saints hands and closed my eyes as a million things raced through it. One thought kept reapeating. Saint please wake up and come back to me please so I can tell you I'm sorry and that I love you.