She

Goodbye (11-02-2019)

I'm afraid that this is it... I've fallen so off the road that I've forgotten where the road leads to...

I'm afraid I've lost my way looking for some way to let off steam and I just lost myself in the process...

I've never been the one to make rash decisions... I've always loved being in control or at least liked to keep up the illusion that I had one...

I'm afraid now if I did continue to walk this path I will never be able to come back out of it...

Am I just so heartless? Am I really that selfish?

I guess I am a heartless bitch who has always been selfish on numerous occasions...

I seem to have a thing for the unavailable... seems to be I'm not the only one here... I need to let go of this toxic trait of mine in order to get myself back on the road...

I need to wean off of the habits and routines in order for me to get back to my boring self...

I don't regret the things that I have done or the things they could have turned out in the future...

But one thing is...I'm not the one to get habituated to anything in my life... especially people... so I'm letting go of some people I feel I'm getting too attached to... I might very well be letting them down but I'm selfish and I can't help it... Not when it comes to my emotional state...

I guess this is a good year to start afresh... let go of anything or everything that might affect me in anyway possible...