Bad guy 《 Jooheon × Changkyun 》

Talking

changkyuns pov

Day — Thursday

"Can I stay a little?" Holy shit I'm not dreaming, I'm in reality. To be honest I thought I'd forget about this, about my feelings, and move on. But this- I did not expect this.

I'm in shock.

"Then can we talk? Just talk?" He nods while I lie down on the bed, my arm over my forehead and the other on my chest. I'm overwhelmed.

"What's wrong? You seem nothing but sad, it makes me sad too" Jooheon asks in a soft whispery tone, he gently runs his hands through my hair easing me back into normality a bit.
We are dating, and I can't help but think bad things. And the good things getting mauled by them. Can I trust him, will he cheat on me? Will he hurt me?

"I'm overwhelmed, I didn't think this would happen. And I feel so many things making me start to freak out and shit. My goddamn ex made me get trust issues and just, fucking ruined me. And because of that bitch I don't like dating people, because I'm afraid of the same things happening again" Jooheon then sets himself down against me, continuously rubbing my head. I feel comfortable, saying everything. I don't feel bad, I don't feel like a burden about it.
", She cheated on me multiple times. Said she loved me when she didn't, did horrible ass things. And dumped me like shit. After that I-I broke. I was shitty before but became more shit than ever. I loved her so much because no one ever cared, or liked me more than my family..I really truly thought she did." I stop and roll over to my side, facing him. He looks at me with an expression of calm, his head though downturned. His eyes are empty, staring into mine.

"I will kill her" Jooheon mumbles making me burst out a giggle, I hit his shoulder, throwing my head back in laughter. What?! ", I will! Don't laugh, I seriously will" I nod lazily, my eyes watery at their edges. Aaa how hilarious..My mood went up after that, really needed it.

"That's nice to know" I raise my eyebrows, shaking my head in amusement. I'm glad he's upset? He looks at me seriously, his expression full of enticement.

"I'm serious, now tell me more" He asks getting comfortable, I lick my lips, and yawn while I set my head down into the beds cushions.

"Like what?" I stare up at him, he looks down at me with a frowning face.

"Everything" Okay..

"..So before her and shit, I was getting bullied so much I would come home crying everyday from how much I was..To the point I was getting into fights, doing shit to  myself and other things. No one liked me at school, no one still does..Anyways I was getting into fights and arguing with teachers, my parents didn't know what to do at all..I after awhile of bullying, told my parents, and then they told the school. The fucking school did absolutely nothing..I was completely alone, it fucking sucked ass. It still does, and I hate it..Then fast forward after the breakup, I was so depressed and very sad..Finally I was sent to therapy, met Wonho at school who helped me so much. We became best friends instantly, he made me feel so happy and loved. I had a true real, good friend..The end. That's it, that's everything" What a rollercoaster of a story.

"..I feel like more guilty now..I'm sorry" Jooheon whispers, pulling his hands through his hair.

"For what? Being a pain in my ass?" He gazes down, making me laugh a bit. Just joking, geez.."A good pain."

"I'm honored"

"So, you now know everything" I exhale weakly while Jooheon starts to rub my head again. "I know I shouldn't compare you to her, that bitch, but-"

"I understand, I would have problems too if that happened to me" I grin, glad he understands me.

"Just don't be so sad anymore, it makes me feel sad also" He smooshes my cheeks together, making me giggle like a kid. What's he doing? He finally stops after I gently grab his hands off me, grumbling a bit I start message them in circular motions. My cheeks hurt now..

"Yeah yeah, I can't control my emotions Jooheon" He sighs moving my hair dangling over my eyes.

"I really like you. Like really Changkyun" He confesses, making me beam instantly. My pulse starts to race, my breaths feel like anchors sinking down and down.

"I like you too" I reply back softly, Jooheon chuckles and slowly starts to shuffle on top of me.

"What are you doing?" I raise my brow looking at him with a smirk, he shrugs innocently, now hovering me with a devious coy smile.

"Let's make love" I can instantly feel my face radiating a bright red, did he just say that? Pinching my lips in a white line, I immediately dart my head down sideways smiling like an idiot.

Gosh I really like him.

I love him.

I'm sorry for my absence, I was really busy and since I have bad eyesight I wanted my eyes to take a break and relax..So I wasn't writing a lot because of this. Anyways The amount of love and support I've received from this book is amazing, and it makes me so happy. Thank y'all, and also for the total of reads this book has gotten. I appreciate it all.
This book is soon going to be coming to an end, soon but not just yet :) Stay tuned everyone! I love you guys 🥺❤️