A Million Ways To Love

Confession....... And rejection

Pamela's POV

Dancing around as Excuses by Olly Murs fills my room is the best feeling ever
"So tell me now do you, do u even know what you do to me, I'm going out of my mind every secret that you're keeping. Oh why won't you let me in? Oh darling ........"

Beep* I think that was my phone
I pick it up to see a message from Eddy
Smiling giddily, I hurriedly open it

                                                        1:28pm

Oreo: Hi.                                                                                 

Me: Hey

Oreo: How are you?

Me: I'm good, You?

Oreo: Same

Me: That's great :)

Oreo: Yeah

Me: Kk

I guess today is one of those days when our chat is short cus there's nothing to talk about

Beep* 

Dreamergirl2309:  Girllll

Me:  What?

Dreamergirl2309: Your boyfriend is online ;-)

Me: I know dummy :-!

Dreamergirl2309: Don't you think you should tell him already? I mean everyone knows already and having a crush on someone since you were 5 is pretty insane :-*

Me: I'm not telling him

Dreamergirl2309: Why not?

Me: I'm scared of rejection and it's inevitable

Dreamergirl2309: What if he actually likes you?

Me: Nahhh not possible, I'm not giving myself false hope :'( .  Plus he knows already

Dreamergirl2309: But isn't it better if you tell him and he says he doesn't like you? At least then you would have closure and you might be able to move on :-)

Me:  Too much wattpad but I'd try OK?

Dreamergirl2309:  It's your choice but it'd be nice if you do

Me:  OK thanks

Dreamergirl2309:  Uwc

                                                                               ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I dropped my phone, just sat on my bed and stared
My singing already forgotten
Thinking about whether to take Isabella's advice or not, I decide to give it a go
I mean there's no harm in trying........ Right?
So I pick my phone up again and text him

Me:  I wanna tell you something

Oreo:  Which is?

Me:  OK so you already know about it and I'm really not asking for anything 'cus I know what you'd say but remember I'm only doing this based on other people's advice OK?

Oreo:  Just talk

Me:  So all I wanna say is that I like you, no that's wrong. You know when you asked me if I like you and I just say it's complicated? Well it's cus I'm in love with you, I've liked you since i was five......... That's all"

Oreo:  Wow, well all I can say is that you should give up on such thoughts like crushing on me because it'll distract you as you are still young and I'd soon graduate. Plus i'm not ready for crushes or relationships, my focus right now is to read and pass my exams"

My mind at this moment: I never said I wanted a relationship :-$

Me: It's fine, I expected that, I only told you cus my mates advised me to. Thanks for being honest"

Oreo:  No problem dear

Me:  :-) 
 
Tears well up in my eyes
I expected the rejection but imagine your crush telling you to give up on him
Well if that's what he wants, I'd make it happen

Beep*

Dreamergirl2309:  Have you told him?

Me:  Yeah

Dreamergirl2309: What did he say?

Me: He said I should give up on him cus feelings will distract me and he's not ready for crushes or relationships

Dreamergirl2309: Wowww =-O.  It's his loss then

Me:  Leave me alone

Dreamergirl2309:  What did I do?

Me:  Just leave me alone

Dreamergirl2309:  sorry

Dropping my phone on my bedside table, I start to cry
Pathetic I know but I can't help it
I cried until I slept

My last thought was "I give up"

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OK so I finally updated
If you read to this part, I assure you that this is when the drama begins
From heartbreaks to the moving on
But the question is...... Will she actually move on?
We'd find out later
Also dreamergirl2309 is indeedDreamergirl2309

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