A Million Ways To Love

Unwanted

Pam's POV

They say love is blind

I say that's crap

They say love doesn't see flaws

I say love overlooks flaws

They say love never gets angry

Well, I say love is ever forgiving

But

What do I know?

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And in walked......... Yes you guessed it

None other than..... The janitor

We all sighed in relief and ran  

Luckily, the halls were empty so we quickly ran out

Looking at the time, it was already 7:30 

"Oh shit, your mom is gonna kill you" Cee exclaimed

"No biggie" I shrugged and quickly waved the goodbye a and started the run home

Getting home, I try to sneak upstairs

"Where are you coming from?" My mum yelled

"Um......School?" 

"At this time? Please stop deceiving yourself, I'm sure you went to stay with one of your boyfriends"

Yep people, this is what I face at home

Apparently, I'm a slut 

No surprise there

I didn't bother to respond 

I just rolled my eyes and ran to my room

That's when the tears started rolling down 

You see, I have one rule, never cry in the presence of people who hurt you

All I can think of Is how unneeded I am and how my absence won't make any difference to the world

There and then I make a decision

The world will certainly be better without me

Sighting a blade, I picked it up 

I'm not a fan of cutting

At all

If a friend of mine does it, I'd get crazily mad

But I do it once in a while

Placing it on my skin, the coldness of the blade makes me shudder

But I purposefully slide it over my wrist 

It stings a bit but the blood starts to flow after a bit of time

Watching it, I smile and drop the blade

I look up at the full length mirror at the other side of the room and seeing, my teat filled eyes, I pick up my journal once again

Inspiration is acquired.....

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A\N: Guys I'm sorry this chapter is so short but it is very emotional for me to type so I had to shorten it to make it less depressive

Also, cutting is very very bad and I'm not writing this to promote it 

So please if you are doing it stop it

Love you all 😘