Letters to Arabella

10th Letter

I miss you Ara,

I admit it. I miss you so fucking much.

I'm in my room sobbing over pictures of you. I know. I'm pathetic. At this point I'll do anything to get you back so that I can stop thinking about you so much. 

I overheard Dr. Hastings tell my mother that he fears I've grown obsessed with you.

Maybe I am. Would that be so bad?
How could someone not? You're so perfect.

I lost the most perfect person in the world just like that.

I'm getting scared. My chest hurts randomly sometimes and I literally feel like my head is going to explode at any given minute. It's like I can literally feel my emotions taking over my body. 

I told Dr. Hastings this, and he urged me to take the medication he prescribed.

But I don't even know if I want to get better. I don't want to move on from you.

I deserve to be in this tragic state after everything I put you through. I disrespected you, underestimated you, mocked you, broke you, destroyed you and worst of all, I changed you.

I changed you into the person you never wanted to be.

I'll change too... for you. 

Once again, I'm so sorry,

 - Your Harry

P.S. I'm taking my medication tonight. For you, my love.