Letters to Arabella

4th Letter

Fuck a greeting.

I don't know what I was thinking the other day. Opening up Dr. Hastings was such a stupid thing to do The nerve of that guy...

He had the audacity to call my mother and tell her all about how he thinks he's getting through to me. I overheard them on the phone earlier today.

I'm never saying shit to anyone—especially not that man—ever again. I knew I should've just kept my mouth shut.

Now my mother is trying to get to me to "communicate" and all of a sudden she wants us to "bond more". What the hell is that even about? She's practically a workaholic and now she suddenly wants me to sit, drink tea with her, and listen to me talk about my feelings.

Everyone is being so annoying Arabella. You were truly the only one that understood me, but life can be so funny though. 

I know if you were here with me you'd tell me to hear her out and try to see things from her perspective. You'd tell me to meet her halfway. You'd tell me to give her a chance, but hey, you're not here so I guess I won't be doing any of those things.

God I miss you Arabella.

I just really fucking miss you.

Writing that down makes me feel like you'll respond and then I ask myself..

Why did you leave me in the first place, Arabella?

  - Harry x