Seoul Secrets | ATEEZ

Chapter 25

Aithne POV

We all decided to go inside instead of staying outside. Hongjoong and Seonghwa went off I think up to their room to talk. I wonder what about. I sip at my drink quietly, waiting for Hana to say something. She looks like she wants to say something, especially to me She was pissed right off when Hongjoong mentioned about her debt and that. I just can't figure out why she didn't tell me sooner. She lashed out on him and I just stayed quiet, not wanting to make it worse like I keep doing. Everything I do, recently, has backlashed onto me. Nothing is going right since my friend's death. It might be that the death is getting me  to me, it could be that my dislike for the boys is getting to me, or it could be that I've never done a good job and I'm finally seeing that now. Whatever it is, I need to stop letting it get to me. 

"You should accept the deal. It would be best for you and the girls." She finally speaks up, looking directly at me.

What did she say? Did I hear that right? She can't be serious.

"Why would I? I'm not letting you go so easily. It'll take more than that to make me let you go."  She gives e a hard stare after I say that.

She sighs, clearly not liking my reply. Is she expecting me to accept it? Why? I don't even know if i can trust his word. 

"Don't sigh at me. We can et through this. Just tell me one thing.. why didn't you tell me? I could of helped you. Don't think I'm letting you go just to get id of some stupid debt! I won't be accepting it, not over my dead body, whether you like it or not." 

"Stop being foolish and be a leader! Put your personal feelings away!" 

And there it is. The one line I've been told multiple times before. How did I know that was coming? Am I being foolish? Aren't there other ways around this? Why can she not see it? I can't believe she has the audacity to say that I need to put my feelings away when it was me that taught them that. What does she think I have been doing this whole time? 

"For all we know Hongjoong could of been the murderer. He could of been the one that almost killed you!!" I reply, anger filling my voice.

"He didn't do it." Her calm demeanor returns as she says that.

"You don't know that! For fuck sake it could of been any of them!" I say, not backing down.

"Really now? Think fucking logically. Do you really think he or the others would hurt Seonghwa? have you seen them? They're blood! Just like us. Someone broke in and stole the bullets!"

"That doesn't prove anything! For all we know one of them could of been faking it! No one could of got in! No one got in! You see, I am thinking logically!" 

That is when Seonghwa comes out of no where. He goes over to her and gently grabs her. He looks directly at me.

"Stop her eyes are dilated." He says calmly, hoping we'd stop after.

Hana ignores Seonghwa and replies to me, "Then someone in this house gave it to them!"

"Well no shit Sherlock! Well done for finally fucking realising!" I say earning a smack at the back of the head from someone I didn't know was there.

I turn around to find it being Hongjoong, her 'knight in shining armour' coming to rescue her yet again from another argument. How ironic that it's always him helping her. Why is she so special? What does she have that I don't? Why does everyone care for the others and not really me? What did I do to deserve this? Does she talk to him bout how 'awful' I am?