BROKEN VOWS

Chapter Twenty Seven : Last goodbye

Rainbow's POV.

--Two months later--

"I hate you so much for giving up on us, for hurting me, for making me cry every single day, for leaving me, for not being there when I needed you most, for everything you did to me, for ruining what we had, for making me trust you when you knew you were just gonna break that trust. I hate you for making me love you so much, mostly, I hate you for making me a fool because I still love you despite everything you put me through." I sobbed. He opened his mouth to say something, but I held up a finger telling him to keep quiet.

I wasn't done talking, damnit!

Two years of courtship, five years of marriage, and seven years later, I'm still head over heels for this man. This man has shown me both heaven and hell on this very earth, yet I can't help but feel like I never got to see the real him because he was playing the role of a happy and successful man while we were together.

I cleaned tear drops from my face while looking at him; I continued. "I'm sorry for everything that happened to you, I truly am. And I'm so sorry that I didn't do enough as your friend and wife to make you trust me enough to share your pains with me. I'm sorry for not noticing how much pain and struggle you were in. I wish I'd done more to help you in some way; for that, I'm sorry.''

I said to the man in front of me. Two months! That's how long I had to beg him by sending a series of messages through Aaron before he agreed to meet with me.

"I'll never forget the way you used to look at me that made me feel so special. All the words you said to me that melted my heart, and the way you used to put me before everything else." I said sniffing and wiping my face with both hands.

"But also, I'll never forget the way you tore me apart piece by piece. The way you treated me like I didn't matter. I'm not even sure which is worse, the fact that you destroyed me completely or the fact that I thought you never would do something like that."

Gosh!

This is so hard!

Wiping the tears rushing down my cheeks with both hands while sniffing loudly.

I was up all night after Aaron told me he'd agreed to meet with me today, thinking of what to say to him just so he could hurt as much as I'm hurting. But looking at him this moment, I kinda feel sorry for him. He looked like he hadn't slept in months.

After two months of having everyone try to talk him out of his decision about the divorce and him refusing every attempt to work on our marriage, I've also had enough time to reflect on some things, and I think it's high time we both go our separate ways.

So I'm here to say my piece and move on with my life for good this time.

"I decided to sign the divorce papers like you asked, I guess you already know about that, right? I feel insulted that you sent someone to inform me about our divorce, you know? Like many other times in our marriage, you made the decision to get divorced all on your own. But that's alright, though, because for once, I think you made the right decision this time." I said chuckling sadly.

"So before you decide never to see me again, I need to say my goodbye in person." Tears have started rolling down his cheeks at me at this point. Finally, some reaction.

Good! That means he can hear me.

"I want to thank you for all the good memories you gave me, for the joy you brought into my life when I needed it. I want to thank you for letting me into your life and getting to know you, even though I have no idea who the real you are at this point. I want to thank you for the change you brought into my life from the moment we met, for the lessons you have taught me, and for the hope you gave me, even though it was false. I want to thank you for the love, happiness, pain, heartache, and emotional hell I have felt." He was full-on sobbing at this point but I continued.

"Thank you for all the periods of times you made me feel like I was flying on cloud nine, and fuck you for all the times I would fall to the ground crying, clutching my chest as I felt myself cracking into tiny pieces. For the times I thought I knew the story, for the times I thought I knew how to handle things, and the times I found out I was not in the wrong but you made me feel like I was." I said a bit louder clutching my dress.

"I am thankful to you for the time you spent with me, but I did not deserve the lonely times and hours I lay awake at night crying because of you. The infinite hours of my heart were consumed with thoughts of you. I forgive you for breaking me piece by piece, for the hard truths I've learned, for the strength I've gained when there was no reason for me to." I said breathing heavily.

"And most of all, forgiveness that was never asked for, forgiveness I owe myself for everything I didn't know and had to endure. I know you can never ask such a thing from me. So as I say goodbye to you now, I want you to know that I forgive you."

The End.

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I'm just kidding; of course, I can't end this story like this. But we are almost at the end, two or three more chapters and we will be done with this story.

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