RAINBOW'S POV.
(Recap)
I abruptly severed the conversation, the weight of Mama's words crushing me. "Goodbye, Mama," I choked out, slamming my finger onto the screen to end the call.
As the device went dark, I exhaled the breath I'd unknowingly held captive. The dam burst, unleashing a torrent of tears. I surrendered to the anguish, weeping uncontrollably.
But my cathartic moment was short-lived. As I lifted my tear-stained face, my gaze collided with Ben's. His piercing eyes with an unreadable expression, locked onto mine.
My heart skipped a beat. When did he get home? The sudden realization that I wasn't alone in my emotional turmoil sent a shiver down my spine.
He blinked once, twice, and our eyes met in a fleeting moment of connection. The air was heavy with unspoken words, and I sniffled, the sound shattering the fragile silence. But instead of comfort, instead of solace, he turned and walked away, leaving me splintered into a million pieces.
The pain was a living, breathing thing, a savage beast that clawed at my heart and ravaged my soul. I crumpled, my body wracked with sobs, my tears falling like rain as I cried myself to sleep, lost in a sea of despair.
---------Back to present++-+-+--
Even now, the memory of that moment still sears in my mind, a raw, open wound that refuses to heal. He walked away, oblivious to the weight of Mama's words still echoing in my mind, still crushing my heart. The uncertainty is a constant torment, a gnawing sense of desperation that haunts me – how much did he hear? Does he even care?
I'm a tangled mess of emotions, unable to untangle the threads of pain, sadness, and frustration. (Sniffs) My mind is a jumbled chaos, my thoughts muddled by tears and heartache. I'm struggling to think straight, to make sense of the turmoil brewing inside me.
It's been an eternity – almost an entire day – since Ben retreated into his home office, shutting himself away from me, from us. Normally, I wouldn't mind him working from home on weekends, but today, it feels like a cruel twist of fate. I'm left sitting here, vulnerable and exposed, my emotions raw and bleeding, while he's safely tucked away, oblivious to my distress.
Is he going to pretend he didn't hear the conversation that shattered my heart? Maybe, just maybe, he didn't catch the words that cut me to the core. Should I confront him and ask him what he knows? No! The risk is too great, the potential fallout too devastating.
Don't get me wrong, he's been distant, a ghost hovering on the periphery of my life. It's been a while since he's touched me since he's shown any interest in my existence. I should be grateful for this reprieve, but instead, I'm left with a gnawing sense of uncertainty.
I need answers, though. I need to know what to tell Mama next time she asks about our plans for a family. Will Ben continue to ignore the elephant in the room, or will he finally acknowledge the painful truth? The thought of confronting Ben about his thoughts on children makes my heart quiver with anxiety. Heaven knows I wouldn't want my words to clash with his, to unravel the fragile threads of our already strained relationship. Though curiosity gnaws at me, I'm terrified of uncovering the truth.
For as long as I can remember, all I ever yearned for was a family to call my own - a sense of belonging, of being loved unconditionally. Growing up in the system, I was just one of many, brought together by circumstance, searching for a place to belong. But reality has a way of shattering dreams, of exposing the harsh truths we'd rather ignore.
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