I am Caroline (COMPLETED)

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CASSANDRA

"When i grow up, i will marry you Andy, and will protect and make you feel safe forever!"

"Promise mo yan ah! Hindi mo ko iiwan?" --Cassy

"I Promised to your beautiful eyes.."

Halos mangatog ang tuhod ko nang hawakan ni Caroline ang kamay ko, i didnt know na gising na pala sya, the heck! Narinig nya kaya lahat ng sinabi ko? Haayyssst nakakahiya!

I look at her and shes now looking at me as well,

Now shes asking me what i am doing, and so i explained and when i ask her bakit nya ko nilipat sa bed she makes me sit beside her first bago nya daw sabihin, a little parang napapangiti ako kasi ang sweet ng gesture nya sakin and to think that our hand is still holding each other.

Series of talks surrounds us, as she shared her life story to me, listening to her that shes been so inlove with her love of her life, parang may kung anong kirot sa puso ko,

Hurt that i didnt know she has been suffering for that kind of pain until now, and hurt knowing the truth why she rejected me, now i feel pathetic, i thought she wants me too as a woman but shes not coz shes straight and still inlove with him.

As she tells her story, her tears fall down her face na hindi ko inexpect, i cant see her crying like this, nasanay ako sa Caroline na malakas at maangas but yeah, shes still a human with weakness and a sad story.

I hugged her and let her cry on my chest, i hugged her tight and she burst out in tears, at this moment hindi ko na din mapigilang hindi umiyak, listening to her whinning makes me remember how miserable i am as a human too,

I start sharing my story to her while caressing her back, i know shes listening, isa isa kong sinasabi ang mga failure sa life ko, how pathetic i am as a child, as a daughter and as a woman whos still longing for the true love from one person na mag paparamdam sakin na kamahal mahal din naman ako.

After sharing my story, she then face me and just stared at me, hindi ko alam kung anong nasa isip nya, for the record Caroline is a person who is really hard to read.

"Im sorry about earlier, maybe nakikita ko lang sya sayo, maybe im just really pathetic hmmmmm sob*sob* hmmm na kahit sa babae nanaisin kong mahalin ako, kasi kahit onti lng i wanted to feel loved, that romantic love na sana bago mag tagumpay yung mga taong gusto akong patayin eh maranasan kong mahalin ng isang tao...but i know its not gonna be you, i respect you only like boys and so I am, but maybe we can now and be friends?"

I said while i cant help my tears, i try to smile habang sinasabi kong maging friends kami, thats the right thing to do and the right thing within us,

After saying that nakatitig pa din sya sakin, then she finally open her mouth.

"Im not sure what to say, but...lets be friends... only after this......" sabi nya and i was stunned when she suddenly kiss me, hindi ako nakarespond agad coz i didnt expect this, but Lord God! Please spare this moment, i want this, hmmmmmm sob*sob* let me own this feelings i have right now hmmmm..

I respond to her kiss, it is gentle and soft, iv always wanted to feel her kiss like this since the day one i taste her sweetness,

She gently guide me na makahiga sa couch while shes on top of me still savoring our each others lips but then she cut the kiss na medyo ikinabitin ko, she is now staring again at me, her tiny hair touches my face and i love it,

"I dont know what will i offer aside from making you safe every single time, i dont know if i can give you the care that you want or if i can be the person youve longing for, im not really sure of my own self as well if when can i be okay, so as for now, will you still let me stay like this?" She ask in a very modest way of whispering in front of me,