Ethan's Pov
I woke up early this morning para makapaghanda. Today..... today is the day for confession, I mean she already knew how much I love her. Pero iba ito ngayon, sabihin nalang natin this day....... I will ask again her hands, at tutuparin ang lahat ng pangako ko sa kanya, including the; bringing her in church; infront of the altar saying those powerful vows and the two magical words; the I do's.
Take it or leave it, I'm ready kung ano man ang magiging reaction at kasagutan nya sa mga tanong ko. I should take that consequences kahit anong mangyari. Sobrang dami na ng naibigay nya sakin, hindi man materyal na bagay, at hindi matutumbasan ng kahit na anong bagay....
"C'mon dude, tabingi si Tom" napakamot nalang ng ulo si Rafael dahil yah- pang pitong sabe ko na sa kanya na ayusin nya pagkakalagay kay Tom.
We're here in a beach resort, na private. Gusto kong gawing special ang theme, kaya Tom and Jerry ang theme ko. I'm sure, magiging masaya si Tricia. Bakit ko nga ba napili ang Beach? Simple, sa Beach lang naman ako sinagot ni Tricia. And i just want it to be special.
"Hayp naman boy, kanina ka pa. Gusto mo naman masyadong perpekto to" reklamo ni Rafael.
"Fine, okay na yan" I nodded. It was simple, Tom and Jerry theme with some strip lights every corner of the tent. A tom and Jerry cake, balloons, and a human sized bear.
This is it, wala ng atrasan to. I thanked Rafael for helping me with all of this, sayang nga lang at wala ang mga pinsan ko, they're all busy kaya mas nauna silang umuwi sa Pinas.
I just took a quick shower and wear a simple suit, and fixed my hair. And now, I'm sweating to the hell. I'm freaking nervous, help me!!
I brought my Mercedes Benz, pero ang takbo ko ay sobrang hina dahil sa kaba.
Bahala na to.
Nang marating ko ang bahay nila, ay agad akong nag bell. It took 1 minute bago may nagbukas ng pinto.
"Oh pare" it was Rafael, na sa tantsa ko ay bagong ligo ito kaya siguro matagal akong nabuksan.
"Where's Tricia?" I asked.
"Uhm...... M-may sumundo kase sa kany-"
"Who?" I interrupted.
"I don't know, nagmamadali kase sya kaya di ko na natanong" kibit balikat nyang sagot.
"Boy?" i asked again.
"Yah, sa pagkakadinig ko they're having a dat-"
"Wtf!?" again I interrupt him but this time, kinwelyuhan ko sya. "But mo pinayagan? Alam mo naman siguro ang plano natin diba? God! Hinayaan mo kapatid ko, what if may masamang balak ang lalaking yun?" this time, I shouted.
Agad din naman naagaw ang pansin namin ng mag ring ang phone ni Rafael. "I'm sorry" yan lang ang sinabe ni Rafael bago ako talikuran at pumuntang kwarto nya.
This is not happening!!
Agad kong pinaharurot ang aking sasakyan, roaming around. Pinasok ko na lahat ng restaurant, or any places dito sa Canada na malapit sa amin na pwedeng pang date. But I failed, ni anino ni Tricia hindi ko nakita.
It's 6:30 pm already when I decided to go back to the beach where I prepared my failed surprise for her.
I sat at the mat, where I prepared earlier para sana dito kami magusap pagkatapos kong hingin mga kamay nya. I just stared to the sea, waving calmly. With the calm winds hugging me, and the combination of stars and moon at the sky.
Maybe I can sing....
Kinuha ko ang gitara sa gilid at umupo ulit.
Feeling the calm ambiance, I start strumming the guitar, while closing my eyes.
Scrolling through my cellphone for the twentieth time today
Di ko alam ba't ito kinanta ko.
Reading that text you sent me again, though I memorized it anyway
I just wanted to release this sadness that slowly eating me, that's why I'm singing.
It was an afternoon in December When it reminded you of the day When we bumped into each other But you didn't say hi 'cause I looked away
Feeling the song, and it's message.
And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life
I felt tears.
And maybe I haven't moved on since that night
I felt pain..
'Cause it's 12:51 And I thought my feelings were gone
I really thought.
But I'm lying on my bed thinking of you again
I always did.
And the moon shines so bright
But I gotta dry these tears tonight 'Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer
Maybe, this is all what I need right now.
Maybe Tricia would be more happy, if mawala nalang ako.
Maybe, I just need to let go.
Maybe, I just need to accept the fact that "hindi lahat ng ipinapanalo natin ay ipapanalo natin".
At least I tried..
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Epilogue is next!!
