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chapter 30

"was he there?" my mom asked as i helped her unpack the groceries, "was who there?" i knew exactly who she was referring to i just really didn't want to have this talk right now especially not with my mother.

"you know, your little 'friend'" she used air quotes to place more emphasis on the word friend. "yes mom he was there" i grabbed two bottles of water to place in the fridge trying my best to avoid any more questions

"well, what happened?" i really don't know what to say to her honestly. i'm not open with anyone except for ally and even that gets a bit awkward for me so speaking to my mother about boys would be the first thing on the list of things i would have to be forced to do in order to even consider doing it.

"nothing happened mom...we just talked and spent the night together" i knew i was lying but it was just a half lie i mean part of it was true and that's the only thing that really matters tho, that i was only half lying.

"okay if you say so. will he be joining us for dinner anytime soon?" i almost chocked on the breath that i took in too suddenly. "um, are you sure that's a good idea?" i responded not thinking she was even serious

"yes sure, why not?...it would be lovely to meet your new friend and what better way to get more acquainted than a formal dinner." i admire her kindness and how open she is about this but i know my parents and one look at aiden's tattoos i will be having a lecture on how i'm throwing my future away for a male who probably has nothing ahead of him.

for my parents it was, meet the perfect ken to my barbie, a guy who wore cardigans and khaki shorts, has a membership at the highest country club in the state, comes from a rich and prestige family, get married, secure my future with a rich husband. it's all planned out for me and i want no part of it

sure having a financially stable husband should be every females dream but i want my own money, my own house, my own cars. i shouldn't have to depend on a man to have a secure future and i should by right be allowed to marry who tf i want not who they approve of.

i decided to not prolong the conversation with my mother and just agreed to have aiden come over for dinner this weekend, we were going to the mall today either way so i would just tell him when i see him instead of just sending a text.

we finished up with the groceries and i got back to my room to get myself ready for today. i made sure to text aiden letting him know that i would be picking him up by 3 so he better be ready or i'm going by myself and i mean it

it feels so weird having to pick him up and drive him out but i never was about that being dependent on a guy life so i was more than okay with it.

i spent some time on my phone when i heard a knock on my door, "come in" i said not bothering to look up to see who it was. "how was the party luv?" the familiar soothing accent flooded my room and i got up immediately knowing who it was

"it was great actually, i have some pictures for you to look at" i pulled up my gallery and julius and i spent some time looking through the pictures as i told him what was taking place in some of them. we got around to a picture of me sitting on aiden's leg and i could see the excitement in julius' eyes. "stop looking at me like that" i hid my face in embarrassment

"is that him?" he said excitedly and i couldn't help but tell him everything.

"you guys are going out today? what will you wear luv? will you keep your hair in a ponytail like you always do?" here i am listening to my butler go off about me meeting a boy. not what most people would expect but i've never seen julius as my butler, just a friend who helps out a bit.

"yes we're going to the mall, i'm not sure what i'm wearing as yet and yes i will have my hair up in my usual ponytail" i can see his pout when i mentioned that i'll have my hair in a ponytail. what is it with everyone and my hair? yes it's nice but it is really hard to manage and doing a ponytail is so much easier than going all out.

"change it up a bit?" he asks me and i play around with my ends before answering. "change it up how?" i can see how excited he gets when i allow him to make his suggestions.

"how about two pigtails? like what you used to do when you were younger" i almost laugh when he mentions it to me but i have to admit that it isn't a bad idea and it is a stray from the norm that everyone is used to seeing me with.

"i'll do it" i say and he smiles at me. "now leaveeeee i have to get ready" i playfully push him out of my room and we both laugh before he closes the door and i walk back to my closet to pick out an outfit.

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heyyy i'm so sorry for not updating i haven't been my best self for a while but i'm feeling better, i'll try to keep updates more frequent now♥️