Desperate (boyxboy)

Chapter 2 - Can't Think Straight

Sean's POV

I was dying inside.

Since my conversation with Tristan things have been heating up. Everyday in Spanish class we sit next to each other....he tends to get a little touchy with my leg.....and I tend to not be able to control him. At the same time he is pretty aggressive.....like one of those touch love guys. Periods go by each day in school and there isn't one class where I stop thinking about Tristan. 

I've never become so obsessed over a guy....but this was tearing me apart. I was barely focusing in class and I had a hard time with my quizes and tests. Luckily I got through them with okay grades....but at the same time I was struggling to finish my homework in school because I always talked with Tristan after school. 

Today was Thursday....the day before our sleepover. My brain was about to blow up with excitement....and anxiety. 

I walked into Spanish and made my usual greeting to Tristan.

"Hey homey....bro.....man...guy" oh god help me.

"Shut up stop talking to me." Tristan mumbled. I was so shocked....I had to contain my sadness and emotions for the rest of class while I didn't talk to Tristan. The bell rang finally and Tristan sped out of the class like a cheetah. I tried to catch up with him and when I did....he blew me off again.

"Stay away from me" the four words crushed my heart into pieces. I went through the rest of school barely keeping everything together. Not paying attention to anything....just trying not to break in front of people.

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For once this week I was doing my homework...trying not to think about Tristan. But his image flashed in my head like lightning strikes. 

I looked at my phone to find it was 11......I packed up my work and cuddled up in bed. 

'You're not going to cry. You are strong.'

And seconds later I broke. I cried into my pillow like a child hiding from his monsters. I couldn't understand why he just broke me off.

I had let myself believe we had something.