Aisyah's open diary

My. Breaking. Point

Losing something that makes you keep going is very heartbreaking. Although you do not know what is the essence of it.

Some of us has finally found the purpose of life. 

Some may haven't 

I cannot give advice since I am losing myself too. 

I have lost interest in most of thing. Everything. 

Some may experience what i feel right now and had finally moved on. 

Feeling numb. i give me to myself when i can depend on god on everything. 

The moment i don't do anything.. psychologist name it as depression .. while me still wondering and thinking.. is it a depression or i'm just lazy?

I stopped "keep go on with life" because I don't see the end. Because I don't know where the road, the path take me.

I doubt my the path. I don't believe in it. How should I get away from it.

When I try to find a solution, I just found myself asking myself back " are you going to find solution or you just run away from your problem?" 

TRUST ME I TRY. 

TRUST ME I WANT TO GET AWAY FROM THIS FEELING

I have lost my sense of purpose for quite sometimes now. 

THE LAST THING YOU WANNA DO I TO BE JUST LIKE ME. 

don't let yourself drawn in this DRAMA. Because it's hard to get away from it.

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My Current State :

1. I sleep late, get up late

2. I don't think of anything

3. I don't focus in my reading

4. I don't want to do anything (I want to but something hold me back idk what it is)

5. I care less about anything that happen in my surrounding.