Chasing the Taste of Dims

PROLOGUE

"Are you breaking up with me?" Vince's eyes are fiercely looking at me. It sent me flutters which move deep within my bones.

The moonlight reflects brightly on his face, highlighting the manly features I have loved for so long. No, I still love it and for sure, I forever will. Rough yet alluring visage like my first love-the moon. Kahit mukha siyang galit at nasa ganitong sitwasyon kami, I always find him really attractive and breathtaking.

The humid dim air embraces my body. Wearing a white ruffled and floral sleveless dress paired with step-in sandals, ramdam ko ang lamig ng hangin sa tapat ng dagat na ito.

We are infront of our beach sa resort namin here in Palawan, wherein his family and ancestors' TRRS Production Company is our loyal supplier of construction goods for more than decade of years. It is summer now and we are celebrating my Highschool graduation.

This night is the last night of the trip and vacation ng mga pamilya namin. Last fulfilling dim with him. My family and I have a flight tomorrow, early in the morning, going abroad for good. At pagkatapos non, hindi ko na alam.

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at tumitig sa malayong parte ng dagat. Ito ang bagay na hindi ko gustong gawin ngunit sa tingin ko kailangan. Looking at my first love, the first ever moon in my life. Yes, it is indeed the moon. Sometimes big, sometimes small. Maybe whole, maybe half. It always has the gloss with the essence of being mysterious.

I crossed my arms and hug myself, giving it enough warmth from the cold sea breeze.

'Sana ikaw na lang ulit.'

Could I turn back the time when the only thing I love and adore is the moon? I bite my lower lip and swallowed all the pain.

"Come on, forget it. It's already too cold. Let's go back inside," Vince whispered softly after hugging me from the side.

My heart says yes but my mind insists no. Could someone tell me on how to deal with it?

He is now holding my right elbow and partially guiding me back at the restaurant where we came from.

Nilingon ko ang mga iniwan naming tao doon dahil niyaya ko siya na magpahingan dito at para na rin pag-usapan ang mga balak kong sabihin. Our families are too happy together, seems perfect to us to be accepted by both sides and be with each other.

-But, we all know that there is no perfect in this world. Hindi ko kailangang lokohin ang sarili ko dahil lang sa gusto kong maging perpekto ang buhay ko.

"Vince..." I called.

Vinnteo Ice Torres, my moon and my love stopped at my call. It breaks my heart. Hindi ko alam kung nasasaktan ba ako dahil sinunod niya ang tawag ko para ipagpatuloy 'to o dahil naduduwag ako sa mga sasabihin ko... o baka pareho.

"We need to... break up," my voice cracked at nakita kong natigilan siya after me, saying it. Pero I am not yet satisfied. Nasabi ko na pero bakit pakiramdam ko hindi siya maniniwala sa sinabi ko?

"I want us to break up," I corrected. Naka-awang ang labi niya kanina sa unang sinabi ko at nang narinig ang pangalawa kong sinabi, he finally moved and spoke up.

"What are you trying to say, Inna?" he made me lean closer to him but I pushed him away.

"Ang sabi ko... mag-break na tayo!" I wanted it to sound like a curse and a period of all but it was not. It sounded like I am pleasing him or no, it is to please myself. Sana kayanin ko, kakayanin ko.

Shock is very evident on his both eyes dahil sa pagtaas ng boses ko but he's still trying to reach my hand. I stepped back as my tears fell down. Bahagyang nilalayo sa kaniya ang kamay at braso ko, dahilan ng mas mabilis niya pang paglapit.