More Than this D.S.

Chapter 20

It's been a few months and it was nearing thanksgiving break well for Daniel at least.

He made things with Cora official a month ago.

I hated it. I was always so jealous when she was around. The way she made him smile. The way his face lit up when he talked about her.

My feeling is were slightly hurt when he started hanging out with me less and bringing Cora back to our apartment more.

"I'll see you later babe" I say to Ryan as we reach my door. He smiles at me then pulls me in for one last kiss before he left "I love you princess" every-time he says that I want to throw up. "I love you too" I fake smile.

I didn't mean it. When we started saying it to each other I felt like if I said it enough it would become true.

I didn't want to ruin what Ryan and I had just because I wasn't ready to say I love you. I didn't want to start a fight.

Something has changed within me once I started dating Ryan. I just feel like I lost myself.

I started wearing baggy clothes instead of my usual crop top and shorts. He hates when I show too much skin. He gets mad when I wear a tank top or show any of my stomach. He always says to me that I'm all his and only he could see me that way which is sweet if you think about it.

I walk into the apartment and see Daniel laying on the couch. "Hey Davi" he says happily "Hi" I mumble with a small smile then rushing to my room.

I close the door and lock it.

Ryan didn't like me living with Daniel that much so I usually spent the night at his and spent the days here.

Daniel and I are drifting apart and I absolutely hate it. I can't tell if it's Cora or Ryan or maybe both? Ugh I don't know.

My phone rings loudly startling me.

"Hellooooo" I say picking up the FaceTime from Angel "Hey chica!" She chirps happily "Ok so tonight there is a frat party and my friend invited me. You should totally come with us" she says I sigh. I needed something fun to get my mind off things.

"Yeah totally um what should I wear?" I question setting my phone on my dresser so she could see me picking through my closet full of clothes.

"Oh the black strappy tank top" she says I hold up two black tank tops one cropped and one full length. "The cropped one" she tells me and I nod.

"Ok and the light wash ripped jeans" she directs and I chuckle. "What's up with you? You're being weird" she chuckles.

"I don't know it just shit and ugh in the nicest way possible you wouldn't understand" I tell her. "Boy problems?" She asks and I chuckle "You have no idea" I tell her:

"Well forget your troubles because tonight we are getting so drunk we won't remember anything" she says and I smile "Hell yeah!" I say smiling.

"Ok get dressed I'll be there in ten minutes then we can do our make up and stuff together and Uber to the party" she tells me "Ok love you Angel I'll see you in a few" I tell her smiling "Bye bubbas love you too"

The call ends.

I put on the outfit and I feel like I'm showing too much skin even though it's calmer then what I used to wear.

I stare at myself in the mirror. I looked different. I've been wearing baggy clothes so much it like I forget what my body looks like.