Buttons And Lace .

Fears....

" Your life is all about the decisions you make , right choices will lead you to paths where you are happy travelling and wrong paths will lead you to different ones. "

" How is it that we know we are doing wrong ? Mom? "
The five year old version of me asked.

" Baby , we always do what we think is right . But the consequences of doing right may always not be happy. "

My mom used to say this to me when I was young .
Today I am getting married . I don't want to think about it being the right or wrong Decision because I am not in control of deciding .
Aaron wants us married.....
And I am not able to resist him anymore...
Mom would never forgive me if I give up, so I am gonna fight till the end .
Fight to escape from the hell he is putting me through.
To fight him, I should know his strengths and weaknesses.
I need to be vigilant around him .

" Mam ,sir has been waiting for you downstairs. It's time for you to be at church "

" Yeah , give me a minute "

" Sure mam "

The butler then left me alone . I looked at the girl in the mirror . A wedding gown which would probably be more than my entire fortune , a veil which covered almost all the space in the room and an engagement ring with a giant sapphire , perhaps from the Victorian era. The lady in the mirror was excruciatingly beautiful , had perfect features and the dress did it's part to enhance the beauty . Everything was perfect except for the pain in the heart.

My subconscious still advised me to run away , find a chance to sneak out of the giant building but my rational mind knew that it would be in vain .

One last look at the girl in the mirror who I refused to accept as myself  , I moved out of the room .

Paving my way down stairs , I walked .

I knew that I had never felt more numb and disgusted .
I disgust myself for being beautiful in the eyes of the man who endeavours me nothing but pain .
I had envied Chloe at times in the primary school for being beautiful but now I felt more on the contrary.

If it was sheer lust through which Aaron was drawn to me , then there was no chance I can save my innocence till the day of my escapade.
And my rational mind knew that only lustful desires can be won through force and he had already did things which proved that .
He had kissed me , touched me , and kept me hostage without my will.

I had to leave everything just because he wanted me in his life , is that what my life is ? An exquisite icon created solely for the purpose of his entertainment.

Is that why god had created me , for the great Aaron Everard Buttons.

Is this all about my life?
What about the love mom promised me , and said that every human being who is kind and generous will be loved by another .
Where is the man mom said will come for me , and would love me , cherish me forever and day........ Where is he ? Why hasn't he come to save me from the hell?

I got out of the car and looked around.
People of class in different attires were lurking around the church . And then a thought crossed my mind , who is gonna take me to the alter . I lost my dad , if it were for a normal wedding my step father would have done it but .

Stepfather.....

My stepfather was standing near the entrance with a fake smile . He saw me get out of the car and started walking towards me Instantly.

Did Aaron invite him to the wedding?
That means ...is mom also here? Could she have come ? No...she is ill . She may not be here.

My stepfather was near me .
I want my mother .

" Come Pristine , let us get inside "

I didn't say anything , he extended his arm and I took it , we walked into the church.
He is behaving well , should I tell him about Aaron ?
Will he be willing to help me ? 

Before I can think about it , I saw Aaron at the alter .
He was indeed handsome , he was in a tuxedo and looking charming as ever .
If a grandma had to narrate the fairytale in this wedding , the child can easily take him to be Prince Charming.

He smiled at me , a genuine smile .
Then I looked at my stepfather to talk .

He was giving a tight-lipped smile back to Aaron .
Nevermind...he does that only when he is showing gratitude to the other person.
Aaron had definitely either given him cash or property.

We walked to the aisle. People were standing and the church was decorated quite beautifully . The way to the aisle was filled with flowers.
Everything was perfect.

Only if I had wanted this.

Aaron pulled out his hand from behind and held it in front of me , gesturing me to take it .
Knowing that I have no chances of escape from the prison ahead , I stepped onto the altar taking his hand.
He smiled at me and I didn't bother to return it.
The priest started the vow and my mind slipped off elsewhere .
'  Do you Aaron Everard Buttons, take Pristine Zoey Lace  to be your lawfully wedded wife '

" I do "  Aaron said with a content smile on his face as if it was the most obvious thing to say.

The priest continued with the vow .

' Do you Pristine Zoey Lace take Aaron Everard Buttons as your lawfully wedded husband '

I thought for a moment.

Do I ?!?

My mind was clouded with various moments .
Will I able to see my mom again ?

Will my life ever be the same again ?

But the most important question was

Will i be happy , ever ?

Does contentment await me ?

By the time I was in the trance , priest gave me a look of disappointment and impatience .
Aaron looked at me sternly and tightly gripped my palm.

"Sweetheart , Father is asking you , answer it "

That is it , my life is sealed .....

' I do '

If someone had ever told the five year old version of me that fate can be changed with two mere words , I would have laughed . But it happens and only the coming moments will be the sole proof ....