Black and Blue

Chapter 8

It was around six in the morning, Matthew was still sitting beside Rolland after his breakdown.

Rolland slightly budged in his sleep, and then slowly opened his eyes. The moment he opened his eyes, a sharp pain hit his head and he moaned .

Matthew looked at him and saw he was waking up. He quickly rushed to get water for  Rolland and kept it beside the bed. Rolland looked at Matthew and gasped in shock.

Rolland was looking at Matthew in shock as he sat up, still in pain. "What h-happened?", Rolland asked in a small voice.

" You, you were drunk and you passed out in the party and um I brought you here.", Matthew answered nervously.

Rolland weakly took the water and drank it and then in no time, rushed out of bed to the washroom and threw up.
After he was done clearing his tummy and cleaning himself, he came out of the washroom and sat down on the bed.

Rolland hadn't forgotten about the previous night. He looked at Matthew and couldn't stop himself from admiring him but not saying anything. Why does he even care anyways? He's just his.... Friend right.

Rolland's mind was a blur and he couldn't think of anything to say. After some awkward minutes of silence, he finally managed to crack a smile and said, "congrats dude".

Matthew looked at him wide eyed and stuttered while saying, " W - what are you talking about? "

"Um.... You're not alone anymore. You got yourself a gf!"

"Uhm... How do you-"

"Oh everyone saw. You s- slept with her didn't you?", Rolland's voice broke as he tried to not cry. Just shut up already and go home you bastard! Why do you even care!?, that's what was going on in his head.

" I- yes... I didn't want to but- I - I don't know she-", Matthew broke down again, this time in front of him.

Rolland felt guilty now, he shouldn't have spoken about it. Rolland went over to Matthew and hugged him, while his tears blurred his vision.

"I'm sorry  I shouldn't have- I mean it's your life and I am happy for you.", Rolland spoke between his sobs, as Matthew cried onto him.

" No- I'm - I didn't want to- I don't even love her!", Matthew cried.

Rolland tried to calm Matthew down, while feeling guilty himself. Why was he suddenly so jealous of Sara? In fact when Matthew said that he didn't love her, Rolland felt relieved.

'No.. No.... I don't love him... He'll never say yes but I can't! Yes I am falling for Matthew..... He's like my safe haven but now he's the one who's hurting me.... ',Rolland was confused. He didn't know what to do or what to say, so he just held Matthew and let him cry.

After awhile, when Matthew calmed down a bit, both of them sat side by side on the bed, staring at the wall. It was Matthew who broke the silence.

"Sorry"

"Why?"

"Because I left you yesterday. I didn't come back to you though I said I would, that too just to end up sleeping with her!"

Rolland didn't say anything.

"I know you have every right to be mad at me but please forgive me", Matthew said again.

Rolland nodded and then said, " It's okay..... I should be sorry too. "

Matthew was shocked. "Why on earth for? "

Rolland took a deep breath and got ready to spill, though he knew he couldn't compete Sara!
"Because -", Rolland started but the  his phone rang and it was his mom calling, "Oh shit".