To Break

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This comment makes my heart pound a little harder and a little faster, but I try to ignore it. It’s not as if it is physically possible for him to make me talk. So I stay seated on the floor with my arms crossed.

“You realise you’re being a complete bitch right now, right?” He says, his first attempt to get me to talk. One thing he knows about me that hasn’t changed since then is that I hate that word. I wince, but not visible enough for Reece to see. I won’t break that easily.

“No? Okay,” he says, realising it hasn’t worked. “Seems as though little miss princess Rainy has grown up a bit since last year.”

I take a deep breath to calm myself, ignoring the wound that is starting to tear open inside of me. I hug my knees a little tighter to my chest.

“Hmm, what else will make you talk?” Reece asks, his deep voice leaning towards the malicious side as he inches closer. I stay as still as a statue, my eyes glued to the ground of the shed.  

Ignore him, I say to myself. You’re not going to break your silence because of him. Just ignore him.

Easier said than done when this is a guy who used to know me better than most.

“Ah,” is all he says, his voice dangerously close. I hear his light footsteps come closer until they are right beside me. Then, an impact on the ground and the feel of someone beside me, his arm almost touching mine.

I bury my head in my knees, curling into the smallest form of myself. I am not going to let him affect me. Not anymore.

The silence in the shack is eerie. I know he has a horrific plan forming in his mind and just when I think he isn’t putting it into place, I feel a warm arm snake around my waist, his fingers curling around my side.

I freeze, not daring as much as breathing too loudly. He can’t do this; it’s unfair. I want so badly to scream at him, to get him to leave me alone but I can’t, because that’s just what he wants.

So I keep my silence and stillness for long enough that he gives up and retracts his arm. I feel a loss of the familiar warmth and let out a breath in relief.

“Ugh,” he grumbles, his voice still close. “Fine. You’ve left me no choice.”

My heart picks up and thumps painful beats through my chest, like the bass line from the music at the party which felt like years ago.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

Reece takes a deep breath before letting it out in a tune that was oh so familiar. “And would you take away my hopes and dreams, and just stay with me?”

Oh no.

“All my senses come to life,” he sings. I feel his eyes burning a hole in the side of my head like his voice is burning a hole in my stomach.

No.

“While I’m stumbling home as drunk as I, have ever been and I’ll never leave again.”

Shut up shut up shut up.

“’Cause you are the only on-”

“SHUT UP!” I scream, my voice raw and breathy after so much silence. I can’t take it anymore. Not that song. Not from him.

Not now. Not ever.

“Was that so hard?” Reece whispers in my ear. I shiver and get to my feet, moving to the opposing corner; as far away from him as possible.

My arms instinctively cross over my chest and a glare resides in my eyes, directed pointedly at the asshole of a guy that I am trapped with. I struggle to keep the tears at bay though, so my job at making him feel like crap is becoming much more difficult.

“Come on, Rainy. Will you stop being so damned stubborn and talk to me?” He asks, a tinge of teasing encompassed within his angry voice.

“Well,” I say, unable to stop my voice from shakings as I prepare to explode. “Why would I talk to someone who is a complete jerk who thinks that a) I locked us in here which I clearly didn’t and that b) I am the worst possible person to be trapped in here with? Y’know, cause, ‘Out of everyone at that dumbass party it has to be you?’” I quote him, imitating his deep, dark voice perfectly. “So tell me, Reece. Why in all of Hell would I talk to you?”

For a minute he is silent, stunned by the fact that not only can I talk, but I can also be irate. Oh yes, he’s not the only one in this tiny shack that is pissed.

“Oh fuck off,” he finally says. “You were the last one to get here. You closed the fucking door so yes, actually, you did lock us in here.” He has an aura of pretentiousness surrounding him that makes me want to smack him; and I’m not a violent person.

“That does mean that I locked us in here! How the eff was I supposed to know that it has an automatic lock??” I raise my voice but can’t help the shake in it. Not because I’m scared of Reece – that would be stupid – but because it is freezing.

I catch myself wishing for a time where instead of yelling at each other, he would notice how cold I am and help warm me up. A time where we didn’t hate each other, nor did we yell. A better time.

Why can’t we be that again?

“Are you fucking dumb?”

Just like that my wishes vanish and all I’m left with is hatred. With a shiver I take a step towards him, my eyes narrowed to slits. “Eff off. You know out of the two of us that you’re the one that’s dumb for thinking I’d keep talking to you. This conversation is done. Have a nice night in silence.”

With that I retreat to the corner and slide to the floor, hugging my black coat tight around my shivering body, wishing I’d worn something more than a purple dress and tights. No scarf, no thick socks, no winter boots.

What was I thinking?

Hmm. Maybe I was thinking that I would go from a warm car, to a warm house and then back to said warm car to go home. This turn of events was not a possibility in my mind.

“Oh please, Rainy,” Reece’s voice comes from the darkness but I don’t turn to it. I close my eyes and flick up my hood, leaning my head against the wood of the farm house. I ignore him, but he continues.

“We both know that you can’t resist talking to me,” he says, voice smooth as silk. “You won’t make it an hour without saying something. I know you, Rainy, and I know that you can’t ignore me for long.”

I’ve stayed silent for a year and ignored him for longer. He doesn’t think I can stay silent and ignore him?

Watch me. 

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A/N: Hello dearies! I know this is my first upload for a week or so but I've been super busy catching up with my friends and family along with having mass marathons of OUAT soo uploading has been at the back of my mind. But to all of you who read this, THANK YOU FOR BEING AWESOME AND DOING THAT!!! I know it's a bit different from my usual but I'm loving writing this. 

Of course if there are any mistakes (especially with tenses) feel free to point them out! I hope you all have had an amazing Christmas and I wish you the very best for 2015!!! HAPPY NEW YEARS!!