bnha x reader | fluff & angst

falling for you | shigaraki

pairing: shigaraki tomura x gender-neutral!reader

warnings: a little angsty but CUTE

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Tomura Shigaraki is a hardworking guy. He strives to witness his future plans and The League succeed. He stays up late on most nights, thinking of every possible way that his plans could fail. He knows that he needs a game plan to get things done.

Shigaraki treats his life like a video game. There is one end goal in mind, with many difficult levels ahead of him. The prize for winning? Well, that would be finally being able to see society crumble without the help of heroes.

When you joined The League of Villains, you didn't plan on falling in love. You were always rebellious growing up. You also viewed yourself as misunderstood. you somehow always knew that you would inevitably end up the way you were now.

Shigaraki never planned on falling in love with you. He arranged every aspect of his future, and finding the love of his life was never apart of that. He didn't think he was capable of love before he found you. His quirk always made him believe that he was incapable of having someone like you in his life by his side for the long run.

Once the two of you met, you were inseparable. You admired him for his goals and how he went about achieving them. You always praised him and his ideas. As for Shigaraki, he simply liked how you never seemed afraid of him. It was nice to have someone like you around him, always telling him how amazing he's doing. That admiration soon turned into something more that the two of you definitely felt.

It's now a few months since the two of you began dating. Your relationship has been going strong so far. The League has been getting more attention, making Shigaraki very excited about what's to come. As a result of all the sudden popularity, Shigaraki has been having to work long nights to make sure everything runs smoothly. This has begun to take a toll on your relationship.

You knew how Shigaraki was before you began dating. Affection wasn't common knowledge to him and he didn't know how to show it. At times, he wouldn't let you touch him at all. Any time you tried to stroke his hair or simply give him a hug, he immediately stiffened up, yelling at you to stop. You know, deep down, that he cares about you. However, it's been hard to not have any insecurities about yourself due to the fact that Shigaraki doesn't like to express how he's feeling.

You decided to confront him, again about this, like you always do. And just like every time before, it lead into another argument.

"Are you seriously asking me that question again?!" Shigaraki sighed, exhausted after a long day of meetings at the hideout.

"I wouldn't have to ask you this over and over again if you would just be honest with me. I feel like I'm wasting my time with you. You keep claiming that you care about me but you never prove it." You raised your voice at him from across your bedroom.

"I don't fucking understand why you constantly need reassurance." Shigaraki turned away from you to walk out the door.

"Of course. Look at you, walking away from your problems once again. I'm not asking you to tell me that you fucking love me!-" You began to feel tears stinging your eyes, threatening to fall as your voice cracked. "-I just need to know if our relationship means anything to you. Am I even worth it?"

Shigaraki stopped dead in his tracks at the sound of your voice. He was afraid to turn and look at you. He was afraid to see how upset he made you feel. He hears your footsteps walk back inside of your shared bedroom, following with the door being slammed shut.

He immediately felt horrible for not understanding. It shouldn't be that hard to say those words to you. Shigaraki cares for you immensely, and he'll be damned if he let's his own worries affect what he has with you.

Shigaraki turned to knock on the bedroom door. Not surprisingly, you didn't answer. He turned the knob to let himself in, immediately looking at your gloomy figure laying down on the bed. Your face was buried in your pillow, with your arms wrapped around it.

Shigaraki silently walked over to his side of the bed, laying down next to you. You didn't move a muscle, obviously deciding to ignore his presence.

"Y/n...?"

You continued to keep your face in your pillow, not wanting to associate yourself with him at the moment.

You feel two of his fingers wrap around your wrist, pulling your hand up. You turned to face him, just in time to see him place your hand on top of his head softly. You stared at him, shocked that he isn't complaining about your touch.

"I k-know that I haven't been the best boyfriend these past few months. It's so hard for me to express how I feel about you, no matter how much I want to. But, I'm going to try harder for you. I..I love you, y/n. I know you may not believe-"

You cut him off by wrapping your arms around his neck, continuing to stroke and play with the hairs on top of his head. He buries his face into your neck, sighing contently.

"I love you too, Tomura. More than you would ever know."