bnha x reader | fluff & angst

confessions | dabi

pairing: dabi x fem!reader

warnings: angst

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The moon shone down on the darkened street, little to no cars passing by at this time of night. The atmosphere was silent, only the noise of Dabi's heavy boots making contact with the cracked sidewalk. His legs move with purpose, cautiously looking around for any suspicious activity on the rundown street as he makes his way to the safer part of town. He didn't mind the long walk one bit, finally getting some time to clear his head and sort the roaming thoughts in his mind.

No matter how stupid the idea seemed, somewhere deep in his heart, he knew he had to make this trip. Not just for you, but for himself. Ever since the day he turned his back on you, the one person he truly cared for, his life has been a living hell. He thought that he didn't need you, he's strong enough to handle himself against anyone...right? If that was true, why does he feel this way? He's never been so broken, like there was always something missing in his life that he would never truly have.

You were once his everything, yet even then he never really showed it.

For a short period of time, he was truly happy. But just like with everything else in his life, he fucked up. Abandoning you when you needed each other the most, because he was scared. He'd never admit to that, but he's never been able to really trust anyone in his life before. The more he got closer to you, the more he feared about getting betrayed just like every other time. He wanted to hurt you before you could do it to him first.

It's been a few weeks since that day, yet it's still fresh in your mind like it happened just hours ago. You lay awake that same night, thinking about him like usual. It made you so upset that you're the one suffering, even though it's his fault. Why must you have to bear all of the pain, while he's out doing whatever he wants, not at allcaring about how you feel? What made you think that you could possibly change him? You knew the type of person he was way before risking it, yet you were too naive to realize that some people just won't change.

No matter how much effort you put into it.

A shuffling sound at your window startled you out of your thoughts. You stared at the clear night sky through the screen, watching as the huge tree next to the window began to shake a bit. Lifting yourself from your bed, you cautiously made your way over to it. Before your hands could even reach the windowsill, a scream riveted from your throat at the sight of the man that appeared. You jumped back, watching as he made quick work of opening it so that he could invite himself in.

"...Dabi?"

"Do you greet everyone looking like that or did you know I was coming?" His usual smirk was apparent on his face as he glanced at your choice of clothing. You were wearing a simple long t-shirt with shorts that were hidden under the shirt, making it look like you had nothing on underneath.

"I was asleep, idiot. Why the fuck are you climbing through my window?!" You stared at him in shock as he brushed himself off a bit.

"Is that any way to talk to your boyfriend, doll." He walked around a bit, stretching his arms obnoxiously. "I see you still keep your window unlocked."

"We aren't dating, Dabi. You made that clear not to long ago." Rolling your eyes at him, you went to lay back down, pulling your duvet back over to cover yourself. "It's nearly 3am, see yourself out and don't bother coming back."

"Look, I know you're mad for obvious reasons and I accepted that. But, I'm not leaving until I say what I came all this way for, so you're going to listen." You turned your body away from him, scoffing at his statement as you gave up arguing with him, knowing how stubborn he is. Dabi moved towards your bed, sitting on the edge of it. The presence of his body so close to yours made your head spin, a rush of emotions came back to you as you realized how much you reallydid miss him.

"Everything that I did to you, well to us, was out of fear. You're the only person in this entire world that I would give my life for, without hesitation. I've been so selfish my whole life, it's scary to think that I would ever actually do that for someone.  It's taken me this much pain and time apart to realize just how much you mean to me, doll. I'm not the easiest person to be with, I can barely stand myself. I'm so fucked up in every single way and all I do is hurt others whether I mean to or not. I'm just...so fucking sorry." He trailed off, averting his eyes from your frozen figure.

You didn't respond to him, silent tears running down your face at the impact of his words. Never once in your relationship has he everapologized to you. The word "sorry" never left his lips, completely absent from his vocabulary after every single argument that occurred. He leaned over to make sure you didn't actually fall asleep, instead noticing the fresh tears staining your cheeks. Wrapping his arms around you, you leaned into his chest, completely breaking down in front of him. Even though he just poured out his feelings, he was the one trying to comfort you. Resting his chin on the top of your head, he rubbed circles into your back while you sobbed in his arms.

No words were exchanged between the two of you, the actions speaking way louder. He rested beside you, watching as your eyes finally fluttered closed. He sighed to himself, not at all expecting to end up like this with you but liking the outcome anyway. He stayed motionless for a while, trying to wrap his head about the foreign emotion that was overwhelming his senses. At that moment he knew that he never wanted to hurt you again, or let anyone else do it either. He wished that the moment could last forever, not wanting to ever leave his place in your arms.

"I think I'm in love with you."

His heart began to pump out of his chest at the thought of actuallyloving someone. Assuming that you fell asleep, he didn't panic much about saying it out loud. Unknowing to him, you heard every single word. Even though there were so many things to talk about, in that moment you chose to forget about it all. You've never seen this vulnerable side of him, so you couldn't help love him for all his flaws just the same.

Dabi wasn't sure if things would ever go back to how they used to be, but maybe it was better this way. As much as he knew that he didn't deserve you, he was determined to prove to you that he could be a person that you're one day proud of. You drove each other crazy in the best way possible and knew that even after everything, you would always find each other again in the end.