You Never Knew

Chapter 12

I'd been placed in Regulatory affairs for the week, something that instantly made my Monday better. If I acquire a stable position at the company, I could see myself working for this department. I dove right in and buried myself in work. 

At lunch time, Jennie practically dragged me from my desk to get some sushi. 

As we sat down at a table at the restaurant, Finn walked in with his new teammate in toll. He froze when he saw me, said something to his partner and walk out again. 

Jennie turned to me. "Okay - what is up with you and Finn?!"

"To be completely honest... I don't know." I sigh and turn my can of soda. 

"But something is going on... right?"

"Well..." And so I finally tell her. Everything from our steamy night as strangers, to seeing him on that first day, our kissing on the night out and his cold behaviour after. 

"Okay... wow! Let me just process this... wow..." She is quiet for a while, as our food arrive. I pour some soy sauce into a small bowl and add wasabi. 

"Do you like him? I mean – do you see this going anywhere? Is it worth the risk?"

I dip a piece of sushi into the mix, thoughtful. "I honestly don't know. I have never felt that way  that I felt that night with him. He stirs up so many mixed feelings in me and... urgh, this is hard!"

I mash the whole piece of sushi into my mouth, trying to organise my words, my feelings, as I chew. "I don't know Jennie. I didn't think anything, anyone, could be worth risking the chance of working for Clarke corp." 

"...until he came along?" She looks at me, a kind smile on her face. 

"Yes... I guess so..." I dip another piece of sushi in the soy mix. "I need to talk to him, don't I?"

Her smile still sweet and caring as she gently nod.

I sigh, suddenly losing my appetite. "I hate when you are right!"

She gently squeezes my hand. "No, you don't! You love me really!" She laughs and I smile weakly at her. 

It's just one of the biggest decisions in my life; what could possibly go wrong?

As we get back from lunch, I've built up the courage to talk to Finn, but he is nowhere to be found. Slightly deflated, and at the same time relieved, I return to my desk and get back to work. As the afternoon pass, I spot him a few times, but he always manages to avoid me.

Feeling defeated, I crash onto the couch as soon as I get home. Jenna glance at me for the kitchen. "So.... are we talking about this yet, or should I just bring the B&J?"

I grunt and cover my eyes. "I think I like him Jenna."

She walks over, casually holding a glass of wine in her hand. "Finn?"

I silently nod. 

"No surprise there sugar! His eyes didn't leave you the whole night." She smiles behind her glass. "And neither did his lips as far as I could tell..."

My eyes widen. "You saw?!"

"You were right outside the entrance. Next to the huge windows, remember?"

I turn onto my stomach, pulling a pillow towards me – and squeal into it.

"He has avoided me ever since. Like literally running from me." I sigh and take the glass from her, swallowing a large gulp. 

"You haven't liked anyone since..."

"Don't say his name! Never say his name!"

She smirks and look at me fondly. "Finn is that good?"