HER PERSONAL ASSISTANT

Chapter 2

Ray's POV

Am I that stupid that even my own mate wasn't ready to accept me wholeheartedly. I always remember the scene I saw in Forrest Gump when Forrest's mother says," Life is a box of chocolates. You never know what you are going to get."
That sentence somehow hit home. I always had a hard life after my whole pack and parents died in that horrendous forest fire while I was away for educational purposes. I still resent the fact that I had to get to know about the incident from the television. After that I was devastated, I couldn't eat, sleep or even think straight. I always had suicidal thoughts and instincts but luckily I did not act on them. I always felt I was better off dead but the memories of my little sister and parents never let me take any drastic step which would've put a full stop to the chapter of my life.

The forest fire wasn't an accident, it was done on purpose..
I still was on the search of the person who did it and I was still hellbent on revenge ...
I was definitely going to avenge my pack and families death...

I had gotten some hope of having a happy life and a big pack of whose I would be a member and won't be treated differently, but seems like I never would be accepted just because I'm a rogue.
My own mate did not try to listen to my story but instead told me that we would set up a meeting, to sort out our differences and problems. The problem being that I am a rogue and she an Alpha .

After drowning in self pity for a very long time I decided to go out and get wasted. The humans accepted me better than my own community, offcourse they didn't know that I was a werewolf but can't my own people see what problems others face, their anxiety issues, etc etc !
I soon reached the closest bar near my house and started drinking, and soon lost count. Everything was appearing to be blurry and mixed as if there were no definite boundaries of objects and people. The people dancing on the floor all seemed to be a big mass of something and not individuals, that time I realised how wasted I was.
But the peak of getting wasted was when I started seeing my mate, Ember at a close distance with a few of her friends I suppose. But I wasn't sure if I was hallucinating or was she seriously there. She looked stunning with a shimmery green dress which was knee length but yet she managed to pull that look of so easily that I couldn't help but wonder that no doubt she wouldn't want a mate like me, a simple, stupid man who lost his job and was pathetically ready to work as a personal assistant. But she wouldn't realise how broke I was to be ready to do any kind of job, I wasn't ready to get thrown on the streets just because I lost my job and my ego was too big to work as an assistant.

I saw her approaching the seat where I was seated and I laughed giddily, the alcohol coming to full effect.
"I am seeing you Em, I think I'm dreaming !!"
She took the glass from my hands and placed it away where I couldn't reach it and I pouted. I wasn't in the mood to be scolded or prohibited from doing what I wanted but when I glanced at her I saw the tiniest flicker of emotion in her eyes, but maybe I was too drunk and  then I sleepily laid my head on the counter and prepared to doze off. In the moment I wasn't bothered that my mate was present when I was a mess, I was emotionally vulnerable right now but I still kept it in my mind that I wasn't supposed to blabber about my past and the way her words had affected me. I felt someone tap on my shoulder and looked at the girl standing besides me with worry written on her face. I wasn't able to comprehend what she was saying but she was pulling on my arm, maybe she wanted me to fall, but then she should've pushed me not pulled me. My drunken mind had started blabbering and I was now getting teary eyed at the possibility of her wanting me to fall and get hurt.

"Come on, I don't want you to fall and get hurt. How much did you drink for god's sake!!"

"Just this much." I showed her by putting the tiniest amount of space between my thumb and index finger. But her words made me feel better that she didn't want me to fall and get hurt.
She didn't say anything and held my hand as she guided me through the dance floor and out of the bar. She let go of my hand to unlock a black car and I instantly missed  the warmth of her hand, I discreetly tried to hold her hand do that she wouldn't noticed but luck wasn't on my side and she did notice. She looked at me with an expression which clearly screamed how much she wanted to scold me for being irresponsible and that somehow warmed my heart a bit. She made  me sit in the passenger seat and drove off to God knows where, but that wasn't in the direction of my house. I wasn't exactly in the state to care where she took me but it wasn't likely that the innocent woman besides me would kidnap me, and she wouldn't even get anything because I was especially broke after spending so much on the alcohol just a few moments back. I soon dozed off and was woken up to sharp sting on my arm.
"Ouch, what the.."
"Well I was trying to wake you since 10 whole minutes and I'm not interested in spending the night cramped up in my car. So if you please get up and get out out of the car."
"Yeah, uh-h sure."

I got out and she followed and led me up to the door of a cost looking house surrounded by trees. I gaped at the house as I entered following her. The living room was clean without a speck of dust. All the things were so neatly arranged and specifically placed on their places that even the corner of any book in the stack wasn't out of place. She gave me a glass of water with some aspirin and led me to the guest bedroom.
"Well I can't lend you clothes but I have a t-shirt that might fit you. Take a shower and I'll keep the clothes and towel on the bed."
I simply nodded and padded over to the bathroom or more precisely I stumbled to the  bathroom. Seeing my reflection nearly made me scream, I wasn't expecting a bird's nest on my head and the bags under my eyes looked as if I hadn't slept in days. I took a shower and found clothes on the bed and went to sleep in the tshirt which had her scent and that helped me immensely with my sleep.

I woke up screaming and covered in sweat as I woke up from yet another nightmare and realised that I wasn't in my own room . I wasn't able to breathe, I was having a panic attack. I always had these dreams where those people standing in the dark told me how worthless I was, how I was undeserving of having a mate. They were partly a reason why I believed that I wouldn't have a mate.
Squinting my eyes in the darkness I noticed it was Ember and relaxed, but I was utterly confused as to what I was doing in an unknown house with my mate who wasn't even ready to have a normal conversation with me this morning. She was trying to calm me and the expression on her face wasn't anywhere near calm. She had a mark on her wrist which I noticed and took her hand in my hand closely inspecting it. I realised that it was my handprint..

"It's nothing, you were screaming and had a death grip on my wrist, it would go away in a day or two."
I simply nodded but I couldn't help but feel guilty.

"Sorry, you had to see me like that. They aren't that bad generally."
"You have them often, don't you"
It was more of a statement than a question and  her gaze was set on my face. I was looking into her orbs and the way they glistened because of the moonlight. They twinkled like the trees in the forest after the rain. They had some emotion which I couldn't pinpoint. It was perhaps pity, but I didn't want her to look at me as some boy who couldn't control his nightmares and was emotionally weak and broken.
I wordlessly got up and started towards the door.
"Where do you think you are going Ray?"
"My house, i don't think a rogue would be very much welcome in the Alpha's house." It came out much sharper than I had intended and she looked hurt but she quickly masked her expressions and got up and went out of the room, slamming the door on my face. Just as I was going to open it again I heard the lock click.

Did she just freaking lock me !!
The hell..