I got up, walked over to the door of the room on the back. As I'm about to open the door Xavier beats me to it. " Zoe- oh your up. I was about to wake you. Are you feeling okay?" He questions, worry laced in his tone. "I'm fine Xavier." I walk past him. "Well your bags are inside the car." He informed me. "Oh thanks I guess."
Well that was awkward. I head out of the jet and walk towards the car. I climb into the car. "River, where's Damian?" "He left when we landed, he said he'd call you." "Oh ohkay."
We sat in silence throughout the car ride. I stare out the window, I could feel someone's eyes on me. I turn around to see Xavier staring at me. I look away and continue staring outside the window. I just wanna get home. Sit and watch a romantic movie by myself, just to let every single tear go.
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We made it to my drive way. I grabbed my bags said my goodbyes and walked into my house. Change of plans your going for a walk. "I need fresh air." I changed into jeans a baggy hoodie and basic sneakers.
I plugged in my EARPHONES and started walking. It was on full blast. I crossed the street and walked into a forest. I walk just listening to my blasting music. I find an opening in the tree's. There's a log there I take a seat.
"What did I do to deserve this?" I yell at the air. "Fuckkkkk!" Tears start rolling down my cheeks. I don't wipe them away I let them rome free. "This was my choice, thinking that I'd actually find love in the best of places. I knew that him liking me let alone loving me would break me at some point. That's what I get for being vulnerable. I trust easily, I love to hard...my stupidity got the best of me." I walk deeper into the forest I really don't care if anyone finds me. If I die here no one will care no one will miss me no one ever knew I existed, the usual.
I continue walking until I feel my feet burning. I sit myself on the ground. "You did this to yourself. You fuck up this time." "Why do you keep degrading your self-esteem." I jump at the voice behind me to find River. "Seriously! You followed me. Does Xavier know your here?" I question hold my chest like my heart would jump out. " I don't need Xavier's permission to walk around." He deadpanned.
"Did you come here to make fun of me or insult me?"
"I was on the other side of the forest, I heard yelling came to check it out to find you. Are you okay Zoey?"
"I wouldn't be here yelling at the air crying if I was okay."
"Okay I get it cal-"
"Don't mention that name around me"
"I get that he hurt you, almost took your virginity, used you as he's form of entertainment. It gets better Zoey. Trust me and you degrading yourself isn't gonna help you."
I ignore him and walk towards the house. I breathe in deeply before walking through the door. I pass the kitchen to find Xavier cooking. Going up to my room, I enter my room. Go take a shower, get dressed and sit on my bed. Playing music that'll make me cry more than I thought it would. I lay on my back staring at my ceiling.
"To think I trusted you" I sigh.
I hear a faint knock on my door and Xavier walks in. "Hey zii, umm foods ready if you'd like to come down and eat with us." "No thank you, I'm not hungry."
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*Sigh
I'm just gonna leave this here🚶
