I lay staring at the ceiling. I feel numb, is that normal? No it's not normal it's beyond broken. It's when you realise that at some point you might decide to end your whole thought process, in order to feel sane. "Hey, Zoey." I hear from the door. "I know you're not gonna respond but Caleb is here." Xavier says with a sigh. "You know what let him in" I sigh.
Caleb walks in. "Um-umm hi, Zoey." I stare at him with a blank expression. "I'm sorry, I didn't know how to tell you." I have so much to say but I can't say it, because if I talk then I might let the tears go and I don't want him to see that he hurt me. "I saw your eye's that day, how broken you were, how I was the cause of you looking so empty, and there are no amount of ways to show you that I'm sorry for what I did to you, will you forgive me" I slowly lift myself up on my elbows, I'm so mad, slowly dragging my eyes to meet his.
"You have no idea of how I feel or how I felt, you have no right to assume that you know me. I almost gave you something that mattered most to me and I'm glad Lia walked in because it would've been a mistake, you don't know me never will, get out." I whisper. "Zoey-" I cut him off. "Get out." I say as calm as possible. "Zoe please-" "GET OUT!!!" "GET OUT!" The tears finally left my eyes.
Xavier walked in. "Caleb I think it's time to leave." He hugs me. "Man, listen this is between Zoey and I so bud out!" Caleb yells. " I'm giving you three seconds Caleb or I'm throwing you out myself" he says calmly. "Fine, just know I'm sorry." Caleb shut the door, leaving the house.
Then and there I let it all out, every single tear I was holding back every single thought of how he hurt me how he manipulated me. I'm such an idiot always have been. I-i just can't bring myself to accepting that it wasn't my fault he left or cheated or used me. I blame myself for falling for him treating him as if he were- he were a trophy I had won and Ment the world to me. I'm stupid to ever think someone like him could ever love someone like me.
"Zoey it's okay" he comforts me. "N- no it's not, I did this to myself I decided to trust him, I almost gave him my virginity for fucks sake, I fell for him harder than I should've, I shouldn't have at all, but I did and I thought he felt the same way. When Lia walked in through that door and said he was her boyfriend, I was devastated, he said he saw the saddest part of me in my eyes. But the thing is he never looked at me, I look at him, I wanted to run and never come back, just to- to run and never see anyone ever again. Xavier you don't know how it feels. You don't know how I feel." With that I walked out the door, nothing in my way. I make my way towards the woods. Reaching the woods, i walk and walk and walk until i find an opening. I lay on the grass staring at the stars, me, the sky and my thoughts left alone.
"What if I die here?" I chuckle sadly. " What if I die here and no one knows it, I just disappear and I don't feel pain anymo-" you're interrupted by your phone ringing. The caller ID is private.
Hello
Hello is this Zoey Adams
Yes it is, how may I help you
I regret to inform you, your parents were involved in a plane crash. There were no survives.
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Ma'am? Ma'am are you okay?
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Hello ma'a-
I end the call, placing my phone on the grass. Laying there in shock. Please tell me I'm having a nightmare. Please tell me this is all a dream. PPLEASE.
PPLEASE.
"I can't, I can't take all this pain. Please tell me this is all a nightmare. Please, please, plea-" I plead. Hearing something in the bushes. "Guess it's my turn." Laying there ignoring everything not caring whether I die or live.
