"Please forgive Me"

Chapter 3

I wake up a bloody mess on the floor , in a lot of pain , I slowly sit up and wince , feeling my new cuts and bruises.

I stand up , almost passing out from the pain , why I am so stupid , James is so good to me , he helps me realise how annoying I am , I would probably be Homless without him .

After cleaning up all the mess I made , and then all the things James though on the floor , it's all my fault , I'm so stupid , so fat , so usless, I hope he dosnt cheat on me this time , he normally dose when he goes out , but hopefully I can be good for him ,I'm such a fuck up,

when I look at the time I realise I'm gonna be late for my second Job , I work at a At Target because James spends practically all the money he can , the only money I have is for the Bills and things like that , I haven't brought anything for myself in about 4 years , but why would I? It's selfish of me .

Since I don't have time to shower , I quickly get dressed , in pain as I do so , and I start to walk to the store , it's about 25 minutes away , it's raining heavily, I'm wearing my coat , but since it's old , it's getting me soaked , and after being freezing and wet as I walk , I get there 13 minutes late

Dawn (my Manager, she's got a short silver with purple haired bob and bangs , she's in her 50ts , and She's rly nice but thinks James is a Bad person , which he isn't he's rlly nice to me , and I love him ) walks up to me "Mike?! What happend to you? Are you ok? What's happend to your face?" She says looking worried at my New forming cuts and Bruises all over my face ,

"It's nothing , I promise , and James went out ,so he has the car , and I just got abit wet" I say ,taking off my Soaking wet Coat, I go put it in the Staff room and start working ,putting things on shelf, and doing the checkouts .

After a while of doing some jobs my coworker , Gorge, comes up to me (we use to be friends when i started , but for some reason he will go out for Drinks with James , and he's started beating me up behind by the Dumpster, I guess i just deserve this)
"Hey fag , I hope you're feeling good today , cause I had to Deal with these woman fighting , and I'm Angry now" he smiles and laughs , he then shoved me against the wall and punches me in the stomach, and walks away chuckling.

20 minutes later
.i feel my knees scrape on the gravel as Gorge pushes me over, he then starts to beat the shit out of me , and when he's finally finished , he walks away Satisfied, and I slowly get up , I look like shit , I clean the blood off my face and start working again , ignoring the pain the best I can.

Later

I get home from work , James car is in the drive so I know he's home , which means he's probably asleep, so when I unlock the door and walk I'm , I try to be as quiet as possible, but then I hear Moans,quiet whispers and Grunting?

I realise , He's having sex with someone , in are house , I thought I did good , I didn't cry that loud when he Hit me , I must have been so stupid, I'm a Terrible husband.

After Snapping out of my thoughts of what I did wrong, I did all the rest of my jobs and just Went to sleep on the couch Thinking about how stupid I am , and what I need to do better.
Make him more food? Loose more weight? Don't be a stupid , take my Well deserved Beatings , I slowly fall asleep with these thoughts filling up my head