Disorders ~ KuroKen [COMPLETED]

Why?

Kenma's Point Of View

TW- SUICIDE

"why didn't you just die?"

"i tried, Kuroo. i tried so hard. i wanted to."

"but why didn't you?"

"you saved me!"

he scoffs.

"why did you save me?"

"if you're gonna die it has to at least look like i cared."

tears roll down my face.

"worthless"
"ugly"
"annoying"
"stupid"
"dumb"
"i wish you died"
"you should've died"

i shoot up, holding my head. Kuroo doesn't really think that.. right?

no, he loved me.

right?

yeah, he did.

..right?

he gave me all his attention, he treated me so good. in return i ran away from him. i should've never done that. but what can i do now? just show up and say, "i'm back! now give me attention because i missed you."

it doesn't work that way.

i miss him. i really do. it's hard without him. all the anxiety attacks, all the panic attacks, the night terrors, everything. it's hard to handle them without him. he always knew how to help and i just left him.

good.

what?

he's happy you left him.

why?

he doesn't have to deal with your sorry ass anymore.

you're right..

of course i'm right!

of course you're right.

does he miss you?

yes..?

NO! he'd never miss you.

i know..

just give up already.

give up?

yeah. you're under a bridge, just jump off it.

i froze. that's the last thing the voices said. i sat in silence for ten minutes.

it's been weeks since i left Kuroo.

i'll call him.

one.

last.

time.
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