Disorders ~ KuroKen [COMPLETED]

NO!

Kuroo's Point Of View

TW- SUICIDE

my phone starts buzzing in my pocket. i pull it out and look at the caller ID.

Kitten <3

i answer immediately.

"KENMA?!"

"Kuroo im sorry."

"for what, kitten?"

"everything. i cant do this anymore."

"Kenma are you.."

tears start to form in my eyes. i never got to explain i didn't cheat. he's going to leave me.

"i'm done living like this. it hurts, Kuroo. it hurts."

"kitten, please, come back to me. let me explain."

"i don't want to live like this. i don't want to live."

my heart drops to my stomach. he's not leaving me, he's leaving the world.

"Kenma where are you?"

"do you remember? when we were children? we had no worries in the world."

"Kenma please."

"we stood at the bridge and threw rocks on the ground since there was no water. do you remember, Kuroo?"

the bridge. that's where he is.

"yes i remember, kitten."

i grab my shoes and run out the door.

"i miss being that happy. before everything happened to me. before i decided i wanted to end."

"Kenma don't do anything."

"i'll always love you, Kuroo. you know that, right?"

"Kenma."

"i may not be able to show you anymore, but please know, i'll always love you."

"KENMA!"

stay alive.

"but i cant do this. no more. i'm sorry, Kuroo. i wish you never met me, so you wouldn't have to be put through this."

stay alive.

"i could've died sooner. no one would've known, anyways."

for me.

"Kenma please don't do anything to yourself. i cant live without you."

"you can and you will. promise me that?"

"only if you promise not to hurt yourself."

i hear him laugh. the laugh i've always known and loved. i thought i'd never hear i again.

"you got me, there."

"Kenma can i ask you something?"

i see the bridge. i see Kenma in my hoodie. i see his phone in his hand. i see him leaning over the edge. i see him..

getting on the ledge. ready to jump.

"go for it."

"why is this a good idea?"

he laughs again. i see his hair move in the wind. i see the tears on his cheeks. i see his sad smile.

"i've never made a good idea in the years i've been alive, Kuroo."

"yes you have. so many times, kitten."

"times out. goodbye Kuroo."

he ends the call.

"NO!" i scream.
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