Disorders ~ KuroKen [COMPLETED]

I Can't...

Kenma's Point Of View

TW- SELF HARM TALK; SUICIDE TALK

i look at the messages Kuroo sent me. i listen to his voicemail. i inhale deeply. it's amazing to hear his voice again, but it hurts to hear the pain in it. i caused his pain.

it's all your fault.

he's crashing without me.

you don't deserve him.

he's had to meet someone better by now.. right?

you don't deserve to live.

he's probably better off without me, anyways.

he doesn't want you.

it's been three days since i left.

he no longer loves you.

he probably doesn't care anymore.

he wants you to die.

he's better now.

he hates you.

he's doing amazing without me.

he wishes you died sooner.

he's happy i left.

don't even bother texting back.

he doesn't care.

why would he even want you back?

he's probably sending this stuff out of pity.

he's so happy you left.

he's never been happier.

he wishes you left months sooner before your relationship got this far.

he regrets meeting me.

he wishes you never met.

he wishes we never met.

he wants you to die.

he wants me to die.

he wants you to cut.

he wants me to cut.

he wanted you to die the day you took those pills three years ago.

he wishes he didn't get there in time to save me.

he wishes you died in that hospital.

he wishes i died in that hospital.

he wanted you to cut deeper.

he wanted me to cut deeper.

why didn't you?

why didn't i?

if you're gonna cut make it deep.

if i'm gonna cut make it deep.

now.

now.

i rummage through my bag. out of everything i brought i forgot to bring my blade.

"dammit!" i yell aloud.

i'm shaking as i wipe my tears from my face. the voices stopped. for now.
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