Anime/Manga Feederism and Weight Gain

5: Old: All Because Of Love (Lev Haiba)

Summary: Lev started gaining weight because of his unrequited love for Yaku.

Warning: This story involves binge eating disorder.
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It was the middle of the night and Lev was sitting at the living room table with only a small light on, eating a piece of chocolate cake that his sister Alisa had made for him, Alisa really liked baking ever since she was a child, and she is quite good at it, so she always makes little snacks for her little brother, but this time she baked an entire chocolate cake for him, you see, Lev has been in a bad mood for the past few days, and Alisa saw that her brother wasn't feeling the best, so she decided to bake a cake for him to make him feel better, but that turned out to honestly not be a good idea.

When Alisa gave the cake to him they both ate a small piece, and after that they put it into the fridge so that they could eat some more of it later, but now it is midnight and Lev had almost eaten all that was left of it.

It wasn't like Lev ate it because he was hungry, he ate for a completely different reason, Lev was having a lot of problems falling asleep, his mind kept wandering to dark places, so he decided to go downstairs and eat a piece of the cake Alisa made to try and make himself feel better, he just wanted to eat one small piece, he kept saying he was just going to eat one more, but of course he didn't and now he had almost eaten the whole thing, and the cake wasn't small either, it was quite a large cake.

Lev sighed as he put the last bite of the big chocolate cake into his mouth and swallowed it, he had eaten a ginormous chocolate cake all by himself in the middle of the night, and his stomach was hurting a lot, yet he still feels so empty. Why is it that no matter how much he eats he still feels so empty? Why can't it just go away?

When the summer first started, when he first started feeling this empty feeling, all Lev had to do was eat a little and the feeling would just go away, now the summer break is coming to an end, and the feeling wouldn't go away at all, even when all he would do was eat it would always come back.

Lev slowly stood up from where he was sitting, and walked to the kitchen to place his plate and fork in the dishwasher, despite the fact that he had eaten a lot already, he still wanted to eat more, he needed to eat more. He opened the kitchen cupboards and started looking for something else to eat, he grabbed a big red jar and started eating the sugar cookies that were inside it, while he was leaning on the kitchen counter. He knew that Alisa had made them, so he wasn't really sure if he was even allowed to eat them, but right now he didn't care, he just needed something to make himself feel better.

'How did all of this even start?' Lev thought to himself. Oh right, it all started because he was in love with Yaku, and still is, but sadly Yaku doesn't feel the same way, he only has eyes for Alisa, when Yaku had told Lev about his crush on the younger boy's sister, Lev had tried to be supportive of Yaku's crush on Alisa. All throughout the summer he had helped Yaku with getting to know Alisa and talk to her, he had even tried to set them up on several dates, and the two of them started getting really close, they got along amazingly with each other, but that just made the empty feeling grow stronger and stronger.

It was hurting Lev a lot, knowing that the one that he loved and his sister were so close, Yaku clearly loved Alisa a lot, Lev wouldn't have helped him out if he didn't, Yaku gave her gifts, compliments, and he stared at her with loving eyes, but when he was with Lev all he did was throw insults at him, Lev knew Yaku doesn't mean any of it but it still hurted him a lot, it was hurting him seeing the difference between how Yaku was treating his sister and how he was treating Lev.

It made him so unbearably sad, and he just wanted the sadness to go away. So he started eating the snacks that Alisa would occasionally make for him, sometimes he would even eat the snacks when they weren't made for him, and when there really wasn't anything to snack on he would even ask her to bake things for him, which she would happily do for him, so he always had something to eat when he was feeling down, and over the past six weeks he started eating more and more, he had completely stopped eating food because he was hungry and only did it to make himself feel just a little better. And it had terrible side effects.