Anime/Manga Feederism and Weight Gain

21: If You Could See Yourself Through My Eyes (Shirabu Kenjirou)

Summary: Semi absolute love's Shirabu's body, even if the latter doesn't always feel the same way.

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"You're so warm." Semi muttered softly while his cheek was pressed firmly against his soft pillow as he's pressed up against Shirabu's.

The night was cold and dark, yet both Semi and Shirabu felt incredibly warm as they laid in each other's soft and tender embrace, while laying in their comfortable and big bed as they cuddled up against each other, both of them too tired to do anything else, but not like they actually wanted to do anything else.

They were both exhausted from all of the work they have been doing for the past few days, and because of that they haven't been able to spend much time together for quite some time, so the moment they got the chance to finally get to spend some time with each other they both jumped on the opportunity to do so, even if it's just laying in bed together while enjoying each other's warmth.

Semi's arm that had been lazily lying over Shirabu's side while the former was spooning him moved to gently caress Shirabu's soft belly, Semi has always loved how soft Shirabu's whole body is, and he absolutely loves getting to feel it up every time they layed next to each other, whether it be on the couch or the bed didn't matter, Semi just loves to touch Shirabu's soft body whenever he gets the chance to do so.

Though to Semi's surprise, as soon as he had placed his hand against Shirabu's doughy belly, Semi could instantly feel Shirabu sucking in his belly the moment he felt Semi's hand touching his body, which caused him to frown as he quickly took his hand away from Shirabu, not wanting to make him even more uncomfortable, before he sat up and leaned over his boyfriend with concerned written all over his face.

"Kenjirou, what's wrong?" Semi asked in a concerned tone as he looked down at Shirabu who was still laying down, not even bothering to look over at Semi as his body curled up slightly in discomfort.

Shirabu didn't say a thing in response as a expression of both sadness and discomfort made its way onto his round face, though despite not having said anything, Semi already knew what had most likely been the cause of Shirabu's discomfort without the boy having to tell him anything, and he desperately hopes his assumption was wrong.

Shirabu has always struggled with his own self image and the way his body looks, ever since Semu had first met him in highschool Shirabu had already been very overweight, which had caused him to be quite noticeable amongst all of the thin students that attended their school, and sadly it had caused him to be on the receiving end of many horrible insults.

Semi could still remember all of the times he has heard people saying terrible things about Shirabu, and he could still clearly remember all of the times he had tried to pick a fight with those who dared to insult his, at the time still precocious teammate, not to mention the times he's actually succeed at doing so and the amount of trouble he has gotten into because of it.

But despite how many times he got detention because of it, it had been worth it, because even though the bullying had never stopped completely, they did stop insulting Shirabu when his teammates were around, which Shirabu had been quite grateful for even if he hadn't been willing to admit it back then.

But even though the bullying did become a little less because of Semi and the other members of their team, it did end up leaving Shirabu with quite a bit of lasting insecurities, and honestly, Semi couldn't blame him, the things that they would say to Shirabu on a daily basis were absolutely horrible, if people said those things to Semi he would end up exactly the same, even if none of what they said was true.

Shirabu is most likely thinking all sorts of self-deprecating things about himself because of it, and Semi didn't like the thought of him doing so one bit.