discovering my sexuality
I think I've been lying to myself
my whole life
by thinking
it would never happen to me
and that everyone just knew from early on
who they liked
and who they did not
Well I didn't know
because I thought that
looking at other women the way I did
was just something girls do,
at least the ones
I knew those around me
expected me to fit in with
I never did,
I've always felt alienated
and I still sometimes fear
the reaction I might get
when I tell other people
about this part of myself
But it's not something
to be ashamed of
It's okay
and it's beautiful
